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When this time is gone, it will take time until it comes back. And when you come home, you know what situation is waiting for you. A person who has been away a long time comes home and finds it empty; there is nothing inside. It is too late to go shopping; the shops are closed. You go to a restaurant, but they do not have the kind of Sāttvic food you get here. You ask for a vegetarian pizza, but they cut it with the same knife used for fish, mushrooms, and onions. You eat something and then have a very terrible feeling in your stomach and a feeling of guilt in your mind. The next day, you have to hurry up quickly, quickly, and run to the bus to go to work. Are you looking for a parking place? There is none. You think you are in a vehicle, so you park anywhere and go to the office. You come back to your car and find two or three tickets on it. And when you get out of the car, there are even two or three cards on it. Is your car parked somewhere in a safe place? So you have to go and bring it back. Or did the city authorities park your car in a safe place, so you have to go there to pick it up? Thus, our staying here at the retreat is in every aspect very valuable, very beautiful, very beneficial. And now you have 48 hours more. After 48 hours, jump into the māyā. But you know, 48 hours is also a lot. So still, who knows that we might get enlightenment? Who knows, maybe we can still get to enlightenment. So don’t give up. Practice, and from this energy you will survive the whole year. This will help you to survive the whole year. So don’t think that everything is disciplined, and not this and not that, and we don’t get what we deserve. There was one man who was looking after cows, a shepherd who was feeding the cows. Whenever he brought his cows into the forest, suddenly one cow came to join his herd. And when evening came, he moved his cows towards home. That cow went for a while with them and then suddenly disappeared. It was his question: to whom does this cow belong? He doesn’t see anybody who brings this cow there. One day, he decided to observe and walk behind this cow. It was about after six months, or one and a half years, because he wants to know to whom the cow belongs. And to whom it belongs, these people should at least pay me something, because I’m looking after this cow too. So, with this kind of feeling and expectations, he walked behind the cow. There was a hilly area, and a small cave was there, so the cow entered the cave. He entered behind the cow into the cave. It was getting darker, so before it got very dark, he held the tail of the cow and walked behind. Holding the tail of the cow and walking, it was completely dark. He was thinking, "I made a great mistake to get the money out of this cow." He thought that I made a big mistake, that I thought I would get money from this cow. If the cow runs away, I will lose her tail, then I will be lost in these caves. I don’t know which way is going where. If the cow runs away, I will lose her tail, then I will be lost in these caves. So he was repeating his mantra and holding with both hands the tail of the cow. And his heart was repeating the mantra. That was a real Ajapa mantra. You heard yesterday about Ajapa-Ajapa, no? Which mantra was he repeating? Dīpa Nirañjana Śabadukha Bhañjana, Dīpa Nirañjana Śabadukha Bhañjana, Prabhu Dīpa Nirañjana Śabadukha Bhañjana, no? Whenever you are in trouble, you repeat this mantra. Śabadukha Bhañjana means, "Please remove all my pain, my suffering, my sorrows, my troubles, all my problems." ŚABADUKHA BHAÑJANA means to get rid of all my pain, my suffering, my sadness. ŚABADUKHA BHAÑJANA means to get rid of all my pain, my sorrow, my fear, all my problems. OṂ BRABHU DĪPA NIRAÑJANA ŚABADUKHA BHAÑJANA OṂ BRABHU DĪPA NIRAÑJANA ŚABADUKHA BHAÑJANA. Walking quickly, after 10, 15 minutes walking through the cave, suddenly the cave became bigger and some light was there. And there were some lights coming, some evening dusk light and some sky light was coming in. A nice waterfall. And the cow walked further in, and there was a very nice, beautiful light. And one very thin sādhu came, and he took the cow, and he put the cow where the cow used to live, and that man was standing there, just looking. Completely frightened, then the sādhu came back and he smiled and he said, "Come, brother, come with me, I will take you to my master." So he went to the master. The master was also very old, very thin, very light-bodied, sitting there, with a beautiful radiance. The Master said, "How are you, my son? You came after a long time. Any complaint about my cow? Is she disciplined enough, or does she run away sometimes?" He said, "No, sir, she’s a very nice cow, a very kind cow, and I’m happy to have seen her with my other cows. Only one thing I did not know: to whom this cow belongs. Such a nice, beautiful cow, well looked after. She comes and suddenly disappears. So my curiosity was this: I want to know to whom the cow belongs." And Master smiled. And he said to him, "Yes, and also you were expecting some reward, some money, that you take care of the cow." "Yes, but that’s not my priority, sir." Master said, "Well, we are here, sādhu, we don’t have any money. You can drink cow milk. We have some things to eat, some kind of roots from the forest. You can eat this. And we have some fields, a little bit, where we get our corn. Anyhow, here you are." So he gave him a handful of weeds. The barley wheat, you know, they are long, brown, have little needles, garrisoned. "So this is our cow feeder, so I will give you a little bit." So he put his towel, salt like this, and he received it in it. He closed it like that. It was a handful only. And he called his disciple. The disciple’s name was Totāpurī. Totapuri guided him again back out of the cave. "And if it is too dark outside, guide him to the house. Because very soon the guards will arrive at the door of the cave, the entrance of the cave." Guards at the entrance of the cave were a few lions. "So, safely bring him back." Well, he was only praying to Mahāprabhujī, "Please, I don’t want anything, only to go out." But his inner self was so relaxed and filled with some divine light. But he couldn’t become still aware of that divine light. Like Kabīr Dāsa said, I must laugh very much that I see a fish thirsty in the water. Kabir Dasa said, "I must laugh very much that I see a fish thirsty in the water." So sometimes we don’t realize what we have. We sometimes don’t recognize what we already have. And where we are, we compare again with the impurity of the māyā, the worldly. So one part of him didn’t want to go. But the second part, which was on the surface, as a physical being, as a mortal being, wanted to run away. Anyhow, the sādhu guided him to bring him out of the cave, and as far as he went from this master, again he got doubts in his mind, the man, the cowboy. And he said, "It’s terrible. One and a half years, I was looking after his cows, his cow. And what did he give me? Some clever words, and just a handful of this rice, or a handful of wheat, barley." So the young sādhu guided him outside of the cave, and the first guard was already there. The third guard was about 40 meters away, and a lot of juniors also, lion babies, and he now accompanied him to the beginning of the village. Then he was so angry, that cowboy. As soon as the sādhu went away, he opened that knot which he had with a handful of barley, and he threw it away and put it all again like this, and went home. His wife was waiting. "What happened today? A cow came along, so around nine, he approached home." And she asked him, "Where have you been? What happened?" And he told the whole story. And while talking to him, she noticed something sparkling in his shawl. While he was speaking, she noticed something on his scarf. She said, "What is that? Nothing. He gave me a handful of barley, and I just threw it away." And she looked in the shawl, and there were about ten or eleven pieces of barley hanging on it, and that was not barley, but a diamond. He said, "Wait a minute, wait a minute." He ran back, and she ran behind him. "What happened to you?" He said, "No, no, no." And he ran. He searched everywhere. He didn’t find anything. And that is it. That cave is this place where we have our anuṣṭhāna. And now you think, what have I got here? My knee aching? My back aching? And what I heard, some stories of Vedas, Vākās, Pakās, I don’t understand. Just a handful. I don’t want all this. But when you come home, then you will realize what remains stuck somewhere in the brain, you know? "Oh God, how nice it was." But when you get home, you realize how beautiful it was. "God, how beautiful it was there!" These are all the stories known, right? Prāṇa, Apāna, Vienna. I’m not in Vienna, I’m in Ljubljana. So Anuṣṭhāna is such a practice which purifies you through and through and gives you that darśana of that holy saint which is sitting within thyself. That is thyself. That cow is the tongue. Also, in Sanskrit, they say the tongue is the cow. And a great saint describes Khecarī Mudrā, and he writes that a yogī should eat, swallow every day the cow. Now, some people understand that a yogī should eat cow meat. Like Jesus spoke about wine, but the fresh-pressed grapes. But now we interpret all alcohol, drink alcohol, wine. Did Jesus know? Did he not know the difference between wine and alcohol? He could have said, "Drink alcohol." So many things are misunderstood. Jīva is that cow, the milky cow, which always gives milk. The hormones which are produced by the tongue are the most important hormones for our whole health condition, our digestion, everything. Hormones that are produced by our tongue are the most important hormones for our body, for our health, probably. Jīvame madhumātmā. In the Upaniṣad it is said, "O Lord, give on my tongue the honey that I speak sweet, madhumātā." In the Upaniṣad it is said, "Lord, give me honey that I speak sweet, madhumāt." So, this tongue is that cow. Hold the tongue means repeat the mantra. Take care that your tongue doesn’t run here and there. And let her go in the cave of the palate, from where, from the Bindu Chakra, the ambrosia is dripping. And let your mind be that sādhu who will guide you. Finally, you will meet the ātmā inside. Even if it’s a very small experience, a very short experience, don’t think, "So many years I am practicing, and suddenly I got five seconds of light, and nothing is there. Maybe I was dreaming of this." And even the very short experience, don’t think that I was sitting here for six, seven years and in a few seconds I got a light, a light appeared. What was in it? So, maybe that was only some blood circulation, missing of vitamin A or vitamin C? Even with open eyes, you see the sparkling lights. Or when there was some experience after so many years, just a few seconds, that’s nothing. Then, when you will read somewhere what kind of experience that is, you will say, "Oh my God, I lost that." So this old sādhanā needs guru kṛpā. Otherwise, all sādhanā, Mahāprabhujī said, is just like food without salt. Salt, and all sādhanā is fruitless, seedless, it will not grow. Therefore, Mahāprabhujī said, "Gurudev bīnā kāraja sāre... Koṭi upāya kare, koi chahe, Koṭi upāya nabhavasey, Koṭi rey Gurudev."