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The Inner Gorilla and the Pearls Within

A spiritual discourse on inner purification and self-realization.

"Human life is given for God-realization. It is a pity that we always forget our past situations."

"Look within thyself; you have beautiful pearls lying there, beautiful pearls. But look to your external, the worldly relations and your greed, ambition—there is a lot of dirt there."

The lecturer leads a morning satsang, reflecting on a nature documentary about predatory monkeys to illustrate humanity's inner cruelties and negative qualities, which he terms "inner gorillas." He contrasts these with the fragile, divine qualities within, like bhakti and jñāna, and emphasizes the human duty to purify the inner system to access the "pearls" of wisdom, love, and purity. The talk explores themes of suffering, the elusive nature of divine vision, and the goal of attaining Śiva consciousness through the realization of one's true nature as Satchitānanda.

Filming location: Vienna, Austria

Hari Om. Welcome, everyone. This is our third session this morning. It has been wonderful and divine. You experienced two meditations—the same meditation in two languages, German and English. Another meditation is in Sanskrit, which we do not yet understand, so we will postpone it until we learn Sanskrit. We have many nations gathered here, and we are also connected via webcast with many dear friends, brothers, sisters, and bhaktas who are with us or have an interest in various ways. Human life is given for God-realization. It is a pity that we always forget our past situations. Only the Jīvātmā knows through what difficulties or pain it was suffering. Life is very cruel, whether for humans, animals, or vegetation. There are cruel situations in nature, too. Humans possess a beautiful intellect and the capacity for self-protection and to protect others. Yet, humans are also victims of cruelties. Which ones? Not from outside, but from inside. Nature has dangers and problems, attacks from the outer world more than the inner. Humans have inner cruelties, inner enemies that attack us. About five days ago, during my evening meal, I turned on the television to listen to what is going on in people's minds around the world. There was a discovery channel connected with nature, which is good to know. They showed the life of monkeys and gorillas—different kinds of monkeys. It showed how they organize their team, their gang, and where they go to hunt other monkeys. They formed huge groups, and the smaller monkeys were frightened. They knew. They tried to climb trees, jump from branch to branch, but the others gave chase and jumped too. The battle lasted maybe an hour or two; it didn't last long. You see, there are two: one is a gorilla or another kind of big monkey, and the other is a normal small monkey. Now, the Jīvātmā—I am not talking about the monkey now, but the soul within that animal—is trying to protect itself. Perhaps in its intellect, it was praying to God or to anything, trying to get protection. The tigers were proud and happy. They found some victims, and they will eat their food. Within no time, they hunted a few, caught them. Their teeth are very sharp and strong. The tigers, the cat families, I think they have some kind of ahiṃsā feeling. They attacked immediately at the throat so that one would die quickly. But the others, they were eating them while they were still living, pulling the intestines, these muscles, those muscles. And, of course, finally, that one died too. Now, the question: everyone will die. Perhaps we are not afraid of death, but of the pain, the process of how we will die. When we see the continuity in creation, the continuity in nature, recycling in nature is connected with that Sanātana principle of the universe—that continuity of the soul may be to go through purification. But must purification be in such a way? Verdammt, mal wollen wir das nicht. Wir werden streiken vor dem Tor von dem Gott. Aber leider sehen wir das Tor nicht. Wo ist das Tor? And therefore, there is only one door. "Door of my heart, open wide I keep for thee. Open wide, I keep for thee. Will Thou come, will Thou come, just for once come to me, just for once come to me. Days fly away without seeing Thee, my Lord. My days fly away without seeing my Lord. Night and day, night and day, I look for thee, night and day. Open wide I keep for thee, wide I keep for thee." So we do not see the door of the Lord. Finally, we turn to our heart, to our Self. It is so good that He sees the door and enters into our door. "Will you come, my Lord? If not, then at least once come to my heart; I will close you inside." That is why He does not come—because you want to have Him only for you. Then your heart will burst, full of attachment, ignorance, jealousy, hate. "But night and day, night and day, I’m looking, longing to see thy beautiful grace, oh my Lord." And that Mīrā said, "I can’t sleep because you may play a trick with me. I close my eyes, and you came already, and I didn’t see you, and I will be angry with you. 'Why didn’t you come?' 'I was there, but you were sleeping.'" So, many times we see the divine. We see that face is something great. Otherwise, that soul-pain is in the soul, not in the body. After death, when the soul goes out of the body, the body does not feel anything. You can cut it in pieces, you can feed it to the animals. But as long as the soul is there, and this awareness, this consciousness is there, this pain you cannot see—you can feel it. You can see someone is suffering, but you cannot see how the pain is. Those symptoms, those principles, those functions which you cannot see, they go with it. You are a form of destiny to the other lives. And what you can see and feel and touch will remain here. So, how many lives have we had? We do not know. And thanks to God that we do not know; otherwise, we would die from a heart attack. How many parents have we left behind, and how are they? And the children and grandchildren? You left your children there, and now they have grandchildren. You died and are born now. Here, their children are as old as you are. You do not know how they are. This is why we are not Trikāla Darśī, knowers or seers of the past, present, and future. We do not see, but that almighty, the supreme, sees. Devpurījī sees very well. Mahāprabhujī sees everything, and Holy Gurujī prays for our forgiveness. So, while looking at this picture, this film—it is not that I am telling you about that program. If you like, you can see it; if you do not like it, do not see it. But to see is also painful. People like us, who are followers of ahiṃsā, when some creature is suffering, we feel that we are suffering. That is a spiritual level, a spiritual consciousness. It means equal vision, a feeling of oneness. As spirituality develops, you have no jealousy, you are not angry with anyone, you do not hate anyone, and you are not proud, and you are not offended. Otherwise, if that quality is in you, then you are just like a corn on a hot frying pan. You put the corn on, and it will explode and become popcorn. And the popcorn will be the victim of someone’s mouth immediately, very soon. So you are not burned only once; you are not only exploded once, but now it will be chewed inside. So, this gorilla, or these monkeys, they are mighty and strong. They were walking around, you see, looking at you. They saw they are soldiers. Others were also nice, and they will say, "Fear." They were jumping here and there, making code and urine out of fear. So, the gorilla is our negative quality within us. They are living in us. These are the mighty gorillas, which have very sharp, big teeth. And this gentle dharma, bhakti, jñāna—they are very fragile and gentle. Bhakti, jñāna, ahiṃsā, love—these are so fine. So, if you are in the nest of the gorillas, then one day, sooner or later, your bhakti will be disturbed, your faith will go away, your confidence will go away, and you will become the victim of those inner gorillas. In their nature—I do not criticize the gorilla, please, okay? It is only an example. I am also a person who is protecting wildlife, and gorillas are dying, and I am also protecting them. But I am giving an example; it could be a crocodile. So, that gorilla is in you. I tell you something, and you are blown off like a bean in the water. You put a very nice, hard bean in the water; in the morning, it is blown up. But blowing off the bean is the first victim of our nice gums. So, that gentle one will suffer in you. Are we able to escape, or get protection, or go far away from this jungle? That is Gurudev. "Śaraṇa tuma cintā merī, tāde." That is it. Gurudev, I seek the shelter of Thyself. Remove my suffering, my troubles, my inner troubles. My ego is so big. That gentle, small, little child who was depending so much on the parents, and the parents did everything for it. But when the child is grown, then it says, "Father, you are the most terrible person in the world. Mother, you are most terrible. You always suppressed me, always did this." Why? I do not want to tell you why. Because one finds some friend, and the friend did not like your parents. Now, because you like that one, you dislike the one which was yours. Like a dog finds a bone, and other dogs come near, then it shows its teeth. These are the gorillas within us which will never let us reach our life goal, and again we will die and be the victim of pain. Therefore, after 8.4 million different creature cycles, human life is to finally become free—that we will never come again into this situation, into this pain. But the ignorance of the human, a temporary happiness, or temporary—that "I am happy and I am successful and I can do all this. Many are afraid of me"—this is a temporary thing. After that, again, we will be taken away from that power which we had. So, God has given us a beautiful body. God has given us all the senses. Also, He has given all our knowledge: mana, buddhi, citta, viveka, love, prema, śānti, jñāna, everything. Look within thyself; you have beautiful pearls lying there, beautiful pearls. But look to your external, the worldly relations and your greed, ambition—there is a lot of dirt there. Before you catch a pulse, dirt will be on it, suffering. So, it is the chance to come to that cosmic consciousness. And there, you have to concentrate: I am not this body. Yes, the body is mine, but I am not the body. The body is my instrument. The body is not my master. The body is my temple. But I am not these walls of the body, of the temple. So, it is a facility given to us. Yes, I have protection from the body, and I have the possibilities and facilities of the utility of this body to do my dharma, do my sādhanā, my bhakti, jñāna, yoga, meditation, prayers, and all this social work, protection everywhere. "Social" means not only humans, but also the environment, forestry, and rivers. In many countries, rivers are so polluted, it is unbelievable. We can say here in Austria and some neighboring countries that still the water must be clean. Yes, that is why it is a blue Danube. Maybe afterwards it is grey, but in the territory of Austria, the Danube is blue. Do not you believe? If you do not believe, then take an aeroplane or a helicopter, make a video, and see. You must make the video in the morning or in the evening. Then it is beautiful, or when the midday sun is shining, it is. Why? Because the Austrian and Austrian environmental people, our government, they do care about all of this. I am not giving an empty compliment, but I do appreciate it very, very much. And the government alone cannot do it; we all have to support that. Similarly, this body—to keep our inner system pure is your duty, my dear. So, within you are those pearls lying: pearls of wisdom, pearls of love, pearls of happiness, the pearls of life, the pearls of purity. But if you have no pure thoughts, then these pearls are not pearls. These are only pieces of bones from some dead fish. In some places, the water is so polluted. Now, the day before yesterday, it was in the news: how 200,000 tons, or million, I do not know, maybe, of fish died. The fish which goes there every year—what name? Lask, Lask... Laksis. They had so much polluted water; they came there. The whole beach was... but after the fish were on it, they did not know how to remove them. So, the bulldozer came to put them in a hole. Did you see someone? No. I do not know where the destination is—somewhere in South America or where they go. That I do not know, but it was terrible to see. No, no, not oil—polluted water in the river. It was unbelievable to see. So, you see everywhere only fish. And they gave the people that one fish will cost five euro cents. Can anyone take? But how much will they take? And also birds died. This is pollution; that is not good, that we have to take. And the same pollution is within us; the gorilla is sitting there. Therefore, those pearls of love, wisdom, intelligence, vivekā, jñāna, buddhi, humbleness, kindness, forgiveness, oneness, equal vision, and harmony—these are beautiful pearls within you. When you realize this and you become free from these gorillas of hate, jealousy, anger, greed, power, governing power—"I am the boss"—and what to do? You are the boss, okay? So, humble kindness. After that, there is a bhajan from Ādiguru Śaṅkarācārya. Bhagavān Śaṅkarācārya was an incarnation of Śiva. And some of the German philosophers said, "Such a great learned or wise person, intelligent person, till now, never has been on this planet or on earth, like a Śaṅkarācārya." You should read the work of Śaṅkarācārya. There is one book in German; it is very nice, called "Ode." That is "Kleine Ode te untasairam." Vivekacūḍāmaṇī. Beautiful. And also the Brahma Sūtras in two parts. Beautiful. And it is also Aparokṣa Anubhūti. Aparokṣa Anubhūti, which I will translate in summer seminars. Beautiful. Ātmā Gyānaṁ Vedānta. Beautiful. Finally, the essence: when you come to self-realization, at that time you will have that Śiva consciousness. Śivo’ham Śivo’ham, Vahī Ātmā Sacchidānandam Ehum. Before, you will not. So, while working, while practicing, while walking, cooking, and doing anything, you should keep this consciousness: I am Satchitānanda, Sat Chit Ānanda—the truth, the consciousness, and bliss, divine bliss. Ānandamaya Kośa is directing to the desires, the causal body. Causal body means the cause of everything, and that is the Ānandamaya Kośa—the joy, desires, feelings. And the bliss, divine, that is the Śiva consciousness, that is the universe, that is Brahman. Chidānandarūpa Śivo’haṁ Śivo’haṁ, Chidānandarūpa Śivo’haṁ, Chidānandarūpa Śivo’haṁ. Chit-ānanda. Chitta, my consciousness. My consciousness is a universal consciousness. That is the ānanda, the supreme bliss, the Brahman. Cit-ānanda. Cidānanda. Śivo’ham. Śivo’ham. My form, my being is Chidānanda. Chidānandaha. I am not this material body, but it is good to speak, nice to hear. Yet when an injection comes, then you say, "Oh, this is my body." So, we are still very attached to the body. We should not neglect our body. We should keep our body healthy, and we should take care of our body, and we should always pray to God to give us a healthy and long life so that we can serve His divine creation and come to our divine goal. The rest will be in the afternoon. My dear ones, I wish you all the best and a very good appetite. The afternoon lecture will be around 4 o’clock, I think, if I am on the right time here. Our European 4 o’clock, 4:30, will begin the lecture. Om Śānti, Om Śānti, Om Śānti. Sat-Thiṃk Chīrānanda-Ruṣi-Moha Om Shanti. Nipunāyaṃ bhagavānaki Deveśvara-mādevā Mādhava-kṛṣṇa-bhagavānaki Satya-sanātandhā.

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