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The Inner Gorilla and the Pearls Within

Human life is given for God-realization, yet inner cruelties attack us like jungle predators. The soul suffers through cycles of pain, seeking purification. We forget past lives, mercifully hidden, and fail to see the divine door within our own heart. External pollution mirrors inner defilement, where negative qualities overpower fragile virtues like devotion and knowledge. Within each being lie pearls of wisdom, love, and purity, but they are obscured by the dirt of greed and ambition. The human opportunity is to realize one is not the body but the eternal consciousness, to cleanse the inner system and attain liberation from returning to suffering.

"Door of my heart, open wide I keep for thee. Will Thou come, just for once come to me."

"Look within thyself, you have beautiful pearls lying there, beautiful pearls."

Filming location: Vienna, Austria

Hari Om. Welcome, everyone. This is our third session this morning. It was wonderful and divine. You had two different meditations—the same meditation in two languages, German and English. Another meditation will be in Sanskrit, which we don't understand, so we postpone it today until we learn Sanskrit. We have many nations gathered here, and we are also with the webcast. Many dear friends, brothers, sisters, and bhaktas are with us through the webcast or have interest in different ways. Human life is given for God-realization. It is a pity that we always forget our past situations. Only the Jīvātmā knows through what difficulties or pain the Jīvātmā was suffering or going through. Life is very cruel, whether for humans, animals, or vegetation. There are cruel situations in nature, too. Humans have such a beautiful intellect and capacity for self-protection, as well as to protect others. But still, humans are also victims of those cruelties. And which one is that? Not from outside, but from inside. Nature has dangers and problems, attacks from the outer world more than the inner. And humans have inner cruelties, the inner enemies which attack us. I think about five days ago, during my evening meal, I put on the television channel, eating and listening to what is going on in people's minds around the world. There was a Discovery Channel, somehow, which is connected with nature, and that is good to know. They showed the life of monkeys and what we call gorillas—different kinds of monkeys. That is how they organize their team, their gang, and where they will go to attack and hunt some other monkeys. They made huge chakras and other small monkeys, different kinds of monkeys. They were frightened; they knew. They knew, they tried to climb the tree, jump from one branch to another, but of course the others gave chase; they also jumped. The battle lasted maybe one hour, two hours—I don't know, it didn't last so long. But you see, there are two: one is a gorilla or this other kind of big monkey, and the other is a normal small monkey. Now, the Jīvātmā—I am not talking about that monkey now, but the Jīvātmā, the soul within that animal, the monkey—is trying to protect itself. Maybe in his or her intellect, they were praying to God or to anything, trying to get protection. The tigers were proud and happy. They found some victim, and their food they will eat. Yes, within no time they hunted a few, they caught them, and their teeth are very sharp and strong. Living still, the tigers, the cat families, I think they have some kind of ahiṃsā feeling. They attacked immediately at the throat so that one would die quickly. But the other one, they were eating them while they were still living. Pulling what you call the intestines, these muscles, those muscles. And of course, finally, that one died too. Now, the question: everyone will die. Maybe we are not afraid of death, but of the pain, the process of how we will die. And when we see the continuity in creation, continuity in nature, recycling in nature is connected with that Sanātana principle of the universe, that continuity of the soul may be to go through purification, but must purification be in such a way? Wo ist das Tor? (Where is the door?) And therefore, there is only one door. "Door of my heart, open wide I keep for thee. Open wide, I keep for thee. Will Thou come, will Thou come, just for once come to me, just for once come to me. Days fly away without seeing Thee, my Lord. My days fly away without seeing my Lord. Night and day, night and day, I look for thee, night and day. Open wide I keep for thee, wide I keep for thee." So we don't see the door of the Lord. Finally, we turn to our heart, to our Self. So good is that He sees the door, and He enters into our door. "Will you come, my Lord? If not, then at least once come to my heart; I will close you inside." That's why He doesn't come, because you want to have Him only for you. Then your heart will burst, full of attachment, ignorance, jealousy, hate. "But night and day, night and day, I'm looking, longing to see thy beautiful grace, oh." My Lord, and that Mīrā said, "I can't sleep because you may play a trick with me. I close my eyes, and you came already, and I didn't see you, and I will be angry with you. Why didn't you come?" "I was there, but you were sleeping." So, as many times, we see the divine. We see that face is something great. Otherwise, that soul pain is in the soul, not in the body. After death, when the soul goes out of the body, the body doesn't feel anything. You can cut it in pieces, you can feed it to the animals, but as long as the soul is there, and this awareness, this consciousness is there, this pain you cannot see, you can feel. You can see someone is suffering, but you can't see how is the pain. Those symptoms, those principles, those functions which you can't see, that goes with it. You are a form of the destiny to the other lives. And what you can see and feel and touch, that will remain here. So, how many lives we have had, we don't know. And thanks to God that we don't know, otherwise we would die from a heart attack. How many parents have we left behind, and how are they, and the children and grandchildren? You left your children there, and now they have grandchildren. You died, and you are born now. Here, their children are as old as you are. You don't know how they are. This is why we are not Trikāla Darśī, knower or seer of the past, present, and future. We don't see, but that almighty, the supreme, sees. Devpurījī sees very well. Mahāprabhujī sees everything, and Holy Gurujī prays for our forgiveness. So, while looking at this picture, this film, it's not that I'm telling you about that program. If you like, you can see; if you don't like, don't see. But to see is also painful. People like us, who are followers of ahiṃsā, when some creature is suffering, we feel that we are suffering. That is a spiritual level, a spiritual consciousness. It means equal vision, feeling of oneness. As spirituality develops, you have no jealousy, you are not angry with anyone, you don't hate anyone, and you are not proud, and you are not offended. Otherwise, if that quality is in you, then you are just like a corn on the hot fry fan. You put it on corn, and it will explode, and that will become popcorn. And popcorn will be the victim of someone's mouth immediately, very soon. So you are not burned only once, you are not only exploded once, but now it will be chewed inside. So this gorilla, or these monkeys, they are mighty and strong, and they were walking around, you see, looking at you. You know, they saw they are soldiers. Others were also nice, and they will say, "Fear." They were jumping here and there, making code and urine out of fear. So the gorilla is our negative quality within us. They are living in us. They are living in us. These are the mighty gorillas, which have very sharp, big teeth. And this gentle dharma, bhakti, jñāna—they are very fragile and gentle, bhakti, jñāna, ahiṃsā, love—these, they are so fine. So if you are in the nest of the gorillas, then one day, sooner or later, your bhakti will be disturbed, your faith will go away, your confidence will go away, and you will become the victim of those inner gorillas. In their nature, I don't criticize the gorilla, please, okay? It's only an example. I am also a person who is protecting the wildlife, and gorillas are dying, and I am also protecting them. But I am giving an example that can be a crocodile. So that gorilla is in you. I tell you something, and you are blown off like a bean in the water. You put a very nice, hard bean in the water; in the morning, it is blown up. But blowing off the bean is the first victim of the nice, our gums. So that gentle one will suffer in you. Are we able to escape, or get protection, or go far away from this jungle? And that's Gurudev. "Śaraṇa tuma cintā merī, tāde." That's it. Gurudev, I seek the shelter of Thyself. Remove my suffering, my troubles, my inner troubles. My ego is so big. That gentle, small, little child who was depending so much on the parents, and the parents did everything for that. But when the child is grown, then it says, "Father, you are the most terrible person in the world. Mother, you are most terrible. You always suppressed me, always did this." You, for why? I don't want to tell you why. Because one finds some friend, and the friend didn't like your parents. Now, because what you like, you dislike that one which was yours. Like a dog finds a bone, and other dogs come near, then it shows its teeth. These are the gorillas within us which will never let us reach our life goal, and again we will die and be the victim of pain. Therefore, after 8.4 million different creature cycles, human life is to finally become free, that we will never come again in this situation. In this pain, but the ignorance of the human, a temporary happiness, or temporary, that I am happy and I am successful and I can do this all. Many are afraid of me, and so this is a temporary thing. After that, again, we will be taken away from that power which we had. So, God has given us a beautiful body. God has given us all the senses. Also, give all our knowledge, mana, buddhi, citta, viveka, love, prema, śānti, jñāna, everything. Look within thyself, you have beautiful pearls lying there, beautiful pearls. But look to your external, the worldly relations and your greed, ambition—that there is a lot of dirt there. Before you catch a pulse, dirt will be on it, suffering. So, it is the chance to come to that cosmic consciousness. And there, you have to concentrate that I am not this body. Yes, the body is mine, but I am not the body. And the body is my instrument. The body is not my master. The body is my temple. But I am not these walls of the body. Of the temple, so it is a facility given to us. Yes, I have a protection from the body, and I have the possibilities and facilities of the utility of this body to do my dharma, do my sādhanā, my bhakti, jñāna, yoga, meditation, prayers, and all this social work, protection everywhere. Social means not only the humans, but also the environment, forestry, and rivers. In many countries, rivers are so polluted, it's unbelievable. We can say here in Austria and some neighboring countries that still the denim must be clean. Yes, that's why it's a blue Danube. Maybe afterwards it's grey, but in the territory of Austria, the Danube is blue. Don't you believe? And if you don't believe, then take an aeroplane, yeah, or a helicopter, and then make the video and then see. You must make the video in the morning or in the evening. Then it's beautiful, or when the midday sun is shining, it is. Why? Why? Because the Austrian and Austrian environmental people, our government, they do care about all of this. I am not giving the compliment, an empty compliment, but I do appreciate it very, very much. And the government alone cannot do it. We all have to support that. Similarly, this body, and this, to keep our inner system pure, it is your duty, my dear. So, within you are those pearls lying, pearls of wisdom, pearls of love, pearls of happiness, the pearls of life, the pearls of purity. But if you have no pure thoughts, then these pearls are not pearls. These are only pieces of bones from some dead fish. In some places, the water is so polluted. So now, the day before yesterday, it was in the news, how 200,000 tons, or million, I don't know, maybe, or the fish died. The fish which goes there every year, what name, Lask, Lask,... Laksis. They had so much polluted water, they came there. The whole beach was, but after the fish on it, they did not know how to remove them. So the bulldozer came to put them in the hole. Did you see someone? No. I don't know where the destination is, somewhere in South America or where they go. That I don't know, but it was terrible to see. No, no, not oil. Polluted water in the river. It was unbelievable to see. So, you see everywhere only fish. And they gave the people that one fish will cost five euro cents. Can anyone take? But how much will they take? And also birds died. This is pollution, that's not good, that we have to take. And the same pollution is within us; the gorilla is sitting there. Therefore, those pearls of love, wisdom, intelligence, vivekā, jñāna, buddhi, humbleness, kindness, forgiveness, oneness, equal vision, and harmony—these are beautiful pearls within you. When you realize this, and you become free from these gorillas of hate, jealousy, anger, greed, power, governing power—"I am the boss." And what to do? You are the boss, okay? So, humble kindness. After that, there is a bhajan from Ādiguru Śaṅkarācārya. Bhagavān Śaṅkarācārya was an incarnation of Śiva. And some of the German philosophers said, "Such a great learned or wise person, intelligent person, till now, never has been on this planet or on earth, like a Śaṅkarācārya." You should read the work of Śaṅkarācārya. There is one book in German, it is very nice, called "Ode." That's "Kleine Ode te untasairam." Vivekacūḍāmaṇī. Beautiful. And also the Brahma Sūtras in two parts. Beautiful. And it's also Aparokṣa Anubhūti. Aparokṣa Anubhūti, which I will translate in summer seminars. Beautiful. Ātmā Gyānaṁ Vedānta. Beautiful. Finally, the essence, when you come to self-realization, at that time you will have that Śiva consciousness. Śivo’ham Śivo’ham, Vahī Ātmā Sacchidānandam Ehum. Before, you will not. So while working, while practicing, while walking, cooking, and doing anything, you should keep this consciousness that I am Satchitānanda, Sat Chit Ānanda, the truth, the consciousness and bliss, divine bliss. Anandamaya Kośa is directing to the desires, causal body. Causal body means the cause of everything, and that's the Ānandamaya Kośa, the joy, desires, feelings. And the bliss, divine, that is the Śiva consciousness, that is the universe, that is Brahman. Chidānandarūpa Śivo’haṁ Śivo’haṁ, Chidānandarūpa Śivo’haṁ, Chidānandarūpa Śivo’haṁ. Chit-ānanda. Chitta, my consciousness. My consciousness is a universal consciousness. That is the ānanda, the supreme bliss, the Brahman. Cit-ānanda. Cidānanda. Śivo’ham. Śivo’ham. My form, my being is Chidānanda. Chidānandaha. I am not this material body, but good to speak, nice to hear. But when injection comes, then you say, "Oh, this is my body." So it is very, still we are very attached to the body. We should not neglect our body. We should keep our healthy body, and we should take care of our body, and we should always pray to God to give us healthy and long life so that we can serve His divine creation and come to our divine goal. The rest will be afternoon. My dear ones, wish you all the best and very good appetite. The afternoon lecture will be around 4 o'clock, I think, if I'm on the right time here. Our European 4 o'clock, 4:30, will begin the lecture. Om Śānti, Om Śānti, Om Śānti. Sat-Thiṃk Chīrānanda-Ruṣi-Moha Om Shanti. Nipunāyaṃ bhagavānaki Deveśvara-mādevā Mādhava-kṛṣṇa-bhagavānaki Satya-sanātandhā.

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