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Oṁ namo śrī prabhu dhīpa nārāyaṇam. Oṁ namo śrī prabhu dhīpa nārāyaṇam. Hama Sab Dās Prabhu Śaraṇ Parāyaṇam. Hama Sab Dās Prabhu Śaraṇ Parāyaṇam. Oṁ Namaḥ Śrī Prabhu Dīpa Nārāyaṇam. Oṁ Namaḥ Śrī Prabhu Dīpa Nārāyaṇam. Dīpa Nārāyaṇ Bhagavānkī. I was sitting with Gurujī, as I told you before. In the morning, Holy Gurujī was doing Mānasik Pūjā. We were in Mount Abu, at the Lal Mandir Ashram. Gurujī was sitting in the veranda with the beautiful landscape of the holy Mount Abu. On one side was the far view of Guru Shikar, the highest peak. There is a beautiful gufā, a cave, where Bhagavān Śrī Dattātreya resides; his Dhuni is still there. A little further up is a temple of the Divine Mother, Anasūyā, the sister of Śrī Bhagavān Kapila Muni. In the Bhagavad Gītā, Bhagavān Kṛṣṇa says, "Siddhānāṁ Kapilo." Among the Siddhas, I am Kapila Muni. On the other side is Nakhi Talab and the Duleshwar Mahādev Mandir, a divine, holy place. In the caves of Mount Abu, many saints reside. They do not come out; they are nourished by energy and have been meditating for years. How their bodies survive is a miracle of God. Gurujī was sitting in that verandah of the Lāl Mandir āśram, doing Mānasik Pūjā. When Gurujī did his Mānasik Pūjā, nobody should make any disturbance. He would sit after his mālā, his pūjā. What is a Mānasik Pūjā? It means you sit in meditation like Ātmanubhūti, with vṛttis, as we spoke yesterday. Then you come to your Sūnyākāś, Cittākāś, and in the Cittākāś a beautiful light appears. In that light, like a beautiful golden lotus, Bhagavān Śrī Dīp Nārāyaṇa and Mahāprabhujī are sitting. When Gurujī told me this, I explained it to him, and he told me. After that, he does the seva: Mera jeevan terī pūjā. O Gurudev, my life is a ceremony to you. My life is a service to you. My life has no meaning, coming to this earth only to serve thy divine will. That I am loyal, faithful, obedient, and I carry thy divine light in each and every atom of my body. So I am not existing anymore; only Gurujī Mahāprabhujī is existing. In that form, Gurujī said he had tears. To remember the Gurū Dev, to remember the divine, the heart is full of joy, like a high tide in the ocean. Everything is overflowing. That is not sadness, but joy, happiness. Gurujī said my name and began his mānasik pūjā: mentally serving Gurudev with mind, imagination, bhakti, emotion, devotion, respect, knowledge, viveka, and loyalty. I asked what it meant. He said, "I imagine Mahāprabhujī..." In his small room, sitting on his bed, sometimes lying down, sometimes getting up. He sleeps for maybe one hour, one and a half hours. At 3:30, a voice comes. Gurujī said when Mahāprabhujī was very kind and loving, he would say only "Mādhav," or "Madhavanan." I thought, "Oh my God, the words are so sweet." And Gurujī said, "Whole night." What is the whole night? Three hours of sleeping, and in these three hours, how many times do I hear the sound in my ears that Mahāprabhujī is calling? I wake up, and he was not calling. Sometimes Mahāprabhujī said, "Call him," and then fell asleep. We would think, "Okay, Swamiji or Guruji is sleeping, let's be silent." But Gurujī didn't wait. Gurujī stood there with folded hands. After one hour, two hours, Mahāprabhujī opens his eyes and says, "What are you doing here?" He said, "Nothing, Lord. You called me." Mahāprabhujī said, "Oh yes, I called you, and I forgot." Gurujī said, "No problem, that was my joy, how I could see all your bodies: your physical body, your energy body, your mental body, your astral body, everything." How the light is joy, and I could see that many ṛṣis are sitting beside him. That small room becomes for me endless, without origin. I said, "Yeah, Gurujī, but you told me morning pūjā, how is it?" He said, "Yes." In the morning, Mahāprabhujī at 3:30 used to call "Mādhav," and then I went there. Mahāprabhujī asked for a glass of water and made my mālā. In winter, they bring coal or wood to make the dhūni. So, from 3:30 to 8, I had a service. Sometimes, sitting, Gurujī said, Mahāprabhujī said, "Meditate." I was meditating. Sometimes I was massaging Mahāprabhujī's feet. It was the most joyful and divine minutes, hours, days, and months. Nobody was there, only me and Mahāprabhujī. Then I went to bring water from the water tank. We had no water; we collected rainwater. I brought warm water for Mahāprabhujī's bath, washed his dress, and then did the Āratī to Mahāprabhujī. After the āratī, Mahāprabhujī gave blessings and said, "Go and clean the āśram." For one hour I had to sweep. After one and a half hours, Gurujī said, "Oh, it was so... like my back is broken." So painful sometimes, but I didn't show and tell Mahāprabhujī that I am tired. Because it is his will, he is divine, I am not myself; the body is his. After that, Mahāprabhujī said, "Now you go for bhikṣā." Near the village by Khattu, two or three villages, sometimes this village, sometimes that village, I used to go for bhikṣā. Bhikṣā means food, like a Bhikṣuk monk. I had so many good friends, my Gurū brothers and sisters, because they were all Mahāprabhujī's devotees. They loved me so much. When I came, they said, "Sit down, eat, drink." I said, no, I'm not allowed to eat. Gurujī only said, "Go and bring bhikṣā." He didn't say, "Eat, bring." So I had to bring it. When the bhikṣā came, Gurujī brought and gave it to Mahāprabhujī. Mahāprabhujī put it beside his bed and said, "Now go and bring the wood for the evening fire." No breakfast, no tea, no coffee, my dear. But still, I was never hungry. I had enough energy. I went to bring wood for the fuel, and Mahāprabhujī called me back. "Come, come, come back." I came back and sat down. The divine play of Mahāprabhujī. "Okay, now you can go for the wood." So, I said, "Okay, Gurudev." But not only wood, but also bring the dung of the camels, because it lasts long burning. "Okay, Gurudev." So, I went, and Mahāprabhujī called, "You didn't make a pradakṣiṇā around the banyan tree. If you don't make pradakṣiṇā, you will not find the camel dung." "Okay, Gurudev." So, I made it and found a nearby lot of dung. I said, "Mahāprabhujī, I found it." He said, "This was reserved here. Go bring all." What a divine play! "Okay, Gurudev, I am going." Again, Mahāprabhujī calls, "Come on." "You know why I called you before?" I said, "I don't know, but it's your Divine blessings." "Forgotten when you came. Why did I call you? You can remind me of something." Gurujī said, "How can I remind you?" And Gurujī was looking at the bhikṣā, the food. Mahāprabhujī said, "Yes, first you must eat. So, go and wash your hands." Washing hands, I sat down. Gurujī was sitting, and Mahāprabhujī got up from his seat, took the big bowl in his hand, and sat near the holy Gurujī like a mother or father, giving food to the child. "Take one more." "Enough. I'm not anymore." "No, take one more." So with love, so kindness. We were only two sometimes, Gurujī said, and it was great. When he sent me somewhere to bring something, I felt a separation. Why did Gurujī send me? I didn't want to lose him from my sight. After all this, I had a pūjā at lunchtime to give Mahāprabhujī something to eat, and before eating, to make his pūjā, and then I was free. And this is what I do, Mahesh, every morning. That's my Mānasik Pūjā. How can I serve Him better? How can I follow His words? And how much joy is that for me? For me, in this Mānasik Pūjā, Mahāprabhujī is not anywhere else but with me. Like this meditation, what we, and yesterday I explained to you, keep mauna and go within thyself, and then see that God or that Guru, that master which you trust, you believe, you adore. And then take in your picture of the Chidākāśa far in your origin. You will see all kinds of, that's called Līlā. All Līlā is different, and that's only you know, and God knows, Gurudev knows. Like in the Gujarati bhajan, "O God, I call you. Please take care of me. How am I? It is only between you and me. Don't tell any third one. O Lord, take care of me." So, Mānasik Pūjā removes all the negative qualities. But if you don't have that quality and that devotion, then comes the question: how? why? for what? Disciples never ask, except for the sādhanās. Put a question to the master, why? When you said why, there is a big distance between you and the master. It means you did not realize in one day. Why? Kyō? How? These questions are negative. The negative saṅkalpa is that in your saṅkalpa there should not come "N." In almost every language, when you say "no," the "N" is negative. But sometimes that "no" is also positive if you can put it in a positive way. So through this Mānasik Pūjā, you develop more spirituality than anything else. You will see in one video in Kathu Ashram where Bholī Gurujī is sitting and doing Mānasik Pūjā. And this was the mudrā where Gurujī was doing Mānasik Pūjā for one hour. And we do a little for a while, and then we put it down, and then we do like this. And then again, we do like this. That is no pūjā. It means you are concentrating on your body, on yourself. You are not concentrating on your seva, on your service. And when you have that seva, that is what is really called a Karma Yogī. When you reach that stage, then you can say that I am a Karma Yogī, or we call them a Karma Sannyāsī. Only getting initiation as a Karma Sannyāsī means you are not a Karma Sannyāsī. Now you have just come into the company, into the factory. They open the door so that you can come in and you will get some work. Becoming a sanyāsī means not that you are already a siddha, my dear. There is a long, long distance, a long way. Seva in Kali Yuga is pradhāna. Seva means bhakti. Kali Yuga kevala nāma ādhāra. In Kali Yuga, the name, the mantra, is the source of everything. Kali Yuga kevala nāma ādhāra, sumera sumera nara hoi bhava pāra. Tulasī dāsa jāni se. Practice, practice. Oh man, you can cross the ocean of ignorance. Donation, give, give... Holy Gurujī said whenever he was somewhere sent by Mahāprabhujī, or he was traveling Gujarat, every month or third month, two, three months, he always came back to Gurujī Mahāprabhujī. Gurujī just put his bag near Mahāprabhujī; whatever is inside is all Mahāprabhujī's, nothing else. It was great things. Mahāprabhujī said, "Why do you give me? I don't need anything." So he said, "Gurujī said, 'But why did you give me? I didn't give you.' Of course, Mahāprabhujī, whatever you give me anywhere, it is you who is giving me, and I give you back." And when Gurujī was going somewhere, Mahāprabhujī told him to go, and Gurujī made a praṇām. And Mahāprabhujī said, "Okay, I give you some money for a ticket or for your pocket money." Kālī Gurujī said, "Why must I carry the money? Mahāprabhujī, why did you give me this burden, this heaviness?" Mahāprabhujī said, "What do you mean? I meant good for you." He said, "No, this is an unnecessary load for me. When I need money, give me that. When I need it, you give it to me." So Mahāprabhujī said, "You go somewhere and buy something, but you don't have money. And they will say, 'Yes, please, this is a bill.' What will you do?" He said, "Yes, then you will give me money. I will give that." So anything Mahāprabhujī, Holī Gurujī bought, and he had nothing, not one single rupee. And the seller said, "Mahārājī, you are a sādhu and have no money. You paid already. Please be gracious and take it." I innerly smiled, Bholī Gurujī said. Yes, Mahāprabhujī, like this you should pay me always. That was such a pure, innocent, crystal clear, transparent love for the Gurudev, Mānasik Pūjā. And, you know, Gurujī was with his body 20 days before, but I kept him, and I told the doctor, "Please keep the daughter, remove the instruments." Gurujī was again in the body, but was gone. I tell you the truth. It will come in my biography. The Śivyotī is working very hard. It's not easy for her. Sometimes I call, "Okay, come, we will write," and I'm sitting, and she's waiting, and she's waiting. And then I said, "Oh, we should speak something," but I don't know the moment; I have to think over. So it's not easy. It's not a button that you press and your recording is going on. I have to recall my memory. And such a memory, which I got, was a miracle now. So sometimes this brain is functioning. So, what did I say? What? Yes, this story will come three times. Oli Guruji himself said to the bhaktas, not me. So, on the day of Diwali, when I was going to the garden and came back, after a few days, one of the bhaktas of Oli Guruji in Jodhpur, his name is Rajendraji, and his wife Sobha and their children—they are great devotees of Mahāprabhujī and Gurujī. Guruji, Rajendraji said to me, "Swamiji, I request you." I said, "What? You know, Gurujī will not leave this body as long as you will not say, 'Gurujī, now you can go.'" Well, I said, "This is the hardest thing which I can tell. I tell, 'Gurujī, go.' I will not. Why do you say this to me?" He said, "Because Gurujī told me in my house one day, 'I will not leave this body without permission from Maheśvara Datta.'" So I went to Khattu, to the Dhuna at Mahāprabhujī Samādhi. It was about noontime, 11 o'clock, 10 or 11. I had a prayer, and in prayer, clearly, I asked Mahāprabhujī, "Please, either bring my Gurujī back, completely healthy, or take him into thy divine light. Let him merge in your divine light." The prayer was not finished, only half, and the telephone was ringing in the Khatṭū āśram. They were answering that Swāmījī is doing prayer. After prayer, they said it was a telephone call from Jodhpur. I called them, and they said just before five minutes, Orī Gurujī's body was peaceful. That much he could hear, that I am in Khattu, he is there, and I pray to Maa Prabhuji for permission. So the relation between master and disciple is like one heartbeat. As long as the heart beats, your whole brain and everything will function. If the heart does not beat, everything will die. So the master and disciple, God and bhaktas, they must have such a trust and such a faithfulness that the bhaktas will come through. You send thousands of seeds, but all will not grow. Traveling the last 44 years around the world, I gave so many mantras and all seeds. They grow a little, they go back, they grow. But which seed will really become the growth? You cannot say today, anyone. You can't say anything. It will be the last minutes. And for that, there is no necessity of any education. There is no necessity for any titles. Nothing. You need that purity, that transparent love, devotion, faithfulness. No trickery. There are many who are tricking. Saying me different, doing different. Or talking something different to me, doing something different. That inner self knows there is some crack between. And that crack, you can join with cement, but very soon it will crack again. To remove that, you have to die, take a new birth, and forget all from the past. Then, may you come through otherwise. This vikṣepa, māl vikṣepa and āvaraṇa. Māla means impurity, vikṣepa means different thoughts, different feelings, different emotions, and āvaraṇa means the curtain of ignorance. You think that Gurudev doesn't know. And if Gurudev asks you, you will say, "No, it's not true." Why? Don't ask why. Mahāprabhujī will not ask anything which there is not something inside. So, Mānasik Pūjā, meditation, today, our dear Ammā Parījī will lead you in this. You should watch very carefully. And the Vṛttis, Vṛtti means your thoughts, but it is different than thoughts. You are sitting here but thinking about going snorkeling in the ocean. How beautiful the corals are. You are meditating here, but you think, "Today for lunch, I hope there will be something sweet." Or you are sitting here but thinking, "How is my dog at home?" Or anyone or anything. That is a vṛtti. So vṛttis are like a fish going away when you come close. These vṛttis to collect again is very hard. For that, you came such a long distance. You should take advantage of this time, this place. Fiji is a divine place, a holy place, with holy mountains. Energy, the stone, every stone has immense energy. Every tree with the wind is singing for us. Portents, ocean, beautiful flowers, bees, birds. How many kinds of birds can you count? Every day, still, you will not be able to count them all. There, vṛtti becomes stable. Three days have gone. What did you achieve? What experiences did you have besides going swimming in the water? Was it high tide or low tide? What quality of water is it? What did we eat? Practice, practice. That kind of pūjā will be coming to God. Other kind of pūjā is a formality, and God is smiling, and He said, "Not there." So I told Gurujī, "You made such a long mānasik pūjā, what did you see?" More Mahāprabhujī said, "I saw Hanumanjī. That Hanumanjī was making parikrama around the ashram where Mahāprabhujī was sitting in Khattu or Duna, and Hanumanjī was singing one kīrtan." I said, "What was Hanumanjī singing? Gurudev, Hanumanjī must be singing, 'Jaya Rāma, Śrī Rāma, Jaya, Jaya Rāma.'" "No, no, no. Hanumanjī is in Śiva. And Rāma is Viṣṇu. Mahāprabhujī is in Viṣṇu. And Shiva is in his Shiva." He didn't tell me what he was singing, Gurudev. Oṁ Namaḥ Oṁ namaḥ śrī prabhudeepāya. Oṁ namaḥ śrī prabhudeepāya Oṁ namaḥ ... śrī prabhudeepāya. Om namaḥ śrī prabhudīpāya. All species. Prabhu, the protector who comes from the Brahmaloka to this earth, to this loka. Deep Nārāyaṇam. Nārāyaṇa, the Viṣṇu. Nārāyaṇa. Oṁ Namoḥ Śrī Prabhu Dīpa Nārāyaṇam. Haṁsabhādas, we are all thy devotees. Śaraṇāpāraṇam, we seek the shelter at thy holy lotus feet. Oṁ Namaḥ Śrī Prabhu Dīpa Nārāyaṇa. Oṁ Namaḥ Śrī Prabhu Dīpa Haṁsabhādas Prabhu Śaraṇa Parāyaṇam. Haṁsabhādas Prabhu Śaraṇa Parāyaṇam. Oṁ Namaḥ Śrī Prabhu Dīpa Nārāyaṇa. Namo Śrī Prabhu Dīpa Nārāyaṇa. Siddhī, Nārāyaṇa, Bhagavān. And then Holy Gurujī put his hand on my head and said, "Go to the ashram, Lāl Mandir. Go to the kitchen and say, 'Gurujī,' ask for a glass of milk." Guruji drank milk and said, "Let's go for a walk." So we went for a half-hour walk. Came back and said, "Now read me something from Līlā Amṛt." I said, "Gurujī, you wrote everything yourself, why do you ask me to read?" He said, "That's not your business. Read." And after that, "Go and ask, where is the lunch ready? Bring it here to my room." So was it divine life with Gurujī? Great. And such memories awake, not always. It's beautiful. Inner vṛtti is mānasik pūjā, so very peaceful, silent, don't worry about hot or not hot. This is a skin, titikṣā. You have no titikṣā. To endure, to endure the situation, that's titikṣā: thirst, hunger, cold, hot, warm. This, that, endure, overcome, that is a Tithī. And sitting here, he says, "Gurujī, so hot, ah, we are exhausted, ah, we can't meditate." What should I do? Should I come and meditate for you? So, that's it. And when it's a little cold, oh God, so windy, I get a headache. So we are never satisfied, never. Why is God doing all this? Ask him. The plant needs the seed to be spread. Its strength needs to be strong to get strength. The exercise of strong wind is a yoga exercise for the trees and for the branches, and this strong wind is a test to see if the tree is humble or not. If it is humble, then the branches are moving like this, and when it's ego like this, it will break. So that's it. Don't be angry, be flexible, be humble. Deepnaya Bhagwānakī, Deveśvara Mahādevakī, Mādhav Kṛṣṇa Bhagwānakī, Satya Sanātana. Wish you all the best. Many have doubted. Late evening, wish you good night. Many a morning, I wish you good morning. Some have had lunch; I wish you a good appetite. Om Shanti, Om Shanti. Bless you, and very soon.