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Śrī Śrī Devī Svāmā Devā Kīche, Śrī Svāmā Mādhava Nānjībhā Gyāna Kīche, Śrī Svāmā Svameśvara Nānjībhā Kuru Devā Kīche. Excuse me if I perhaps do not find the right words. We are performing this Anuṣṭhāna sādhanā, and it is bringing many things to the surface. Many memories are arising from the past, along with many, many situations. And this must happen. That is why we are doing it. I recall a time, I do not know when, I was in a church. I was sitting there, perhaps because I had forgotten the ceremony, or maybe I wanted to understand, or it was some special occasion. But there was a moment when it was said, "I am a sinner, I am a sinner, and I have sinned, I am a sinner." One had to place a hand over the heart. I remember being in the church; I do not recall the exact rites, but I remember the moment when they said, "It is my fault, it is my fault... I am a sinner," and you had to strike your chest with it. I was thinking, yes, we have many faults, many, many. As Matajī said, we are so jealous, so angry, so greedy, we have such a big ego, and what more, we have so much attachment. This is all we have. But the one difference between those who do not practice yoga and us is that we know. We know it, we are aware of it, and we know what to do. I once asked Swāmījī, "What should one do when one has caught this tiger, this wild tiger, to control all these qualities?" To control these qualities, you have this tiger inside you now. So what is to be done? Swāmījī said, "Use your viveka, your jñāna." That is the answer. This is all that we are bringing to the surface, like cleaning a pond. All the dust and dirt rises to the surface, very clearly. One can see it, one can feel it. Now we clean it, and this is very good. Furthermore, when we feel jealous, there is always an answer. As the Indian saying goes, "Walk a few miles in the shoes of the person you envy, and then be jealous." Consider the other person; they have the same feelings, the same needs as oneself. So for everything there is an answer, and to observe all these qualities, there is always another perspective as well. And we are aware of that, we know that. And ahaṃkāra, ego, can also be positive. Some ahaṃkāra is necessary; otherwise we could not live, we could not exist. To use it in a positive way is beneficial; it is not negative. Sometimes ahaṃkāra is mistakenly seen as willpower. All the yogīs here possess great willpower, great strength, and we all use it for something good. Therefore, do not, because of this talk of sin and sin and sin... we are not sinners. We are the divine ātmā. Swami Vivekānandajī once said, it is a sin to call someone a sinner. Thank you very much. Sadhvī Umapurī spoke about love, about Gurudeva, and I would like to continue on this topic. Once, Viśva Gurujī spoke to us about the difference between a Guru and other people. For me, it was so interesting that I will never forget it. He said there are two boxes, identical from the outside. In one box is a crystal, and in the other box is also a crystal, but one is made of glass and the other is a diamond, which is priceless. Externally, they are the same. But inside, there is a vast difference. Viśva Gurujī explained it thus, saying, "The Guru also has a human body, like other people. He also has the need to eat, drink, and sustain his body, just as we do. But inside lies the difference." This is the difference: the love that the Guru can give to his disciple—love, love, love. Yes, this cannot be done by anyone else. No other human being can do it; only the Guru can. Once Viśvagurujī also spoke on this, saying that parents have more love for their children than other people do. God has more love than parents. But the Guru has more love than God. This is the difference. This is that diamond which has no price. Viśva Gurujī is a candle. A candle made of the most precious wax, and he is simply burning down. He is burning that wax away completely. We are small candles. We are trying to learn to burn all the time, to burn up our wax. So sometimes we shine brightly, and sometimes our light is very dim. But Viśva Gurujī's light is an immense light, and he is dedicating his entire life. Let us learn, through our life and our dharma, to shine brightly and, in the same way, to burn our own wax—which God has given to us. It is our body, our mind, our soul—not holding anything back, surrendering it to him, and surrendering it to the true task he has given us. I believe then our life will be fulfilled. It will become the same diamond as that diamond, shining upon us. Thank you, Viśva Gurujī, for not holding anything back, for forgiving us all. I was listening to the wise words of the older disciples who spoke just now. I myself am not a very old disciple. But as I was walking to the Anuṣṭhān today, I was reflecting on these last few years spent under Viśvagurujī's guidance. In bhajans, we often hear, and Swāmījī also often says, that a disciple surrenders to Gurudeva, trusts him completely. We also read this in Līlā Amṛt, for example: a disciple came to satsaṅg, surrendered to Gurudeva, and received a blessing. And so I think, this is my Gurudeva. I surrender to him completely. But my experience with this took a little time, I must say. You see, in this world, to survive, you develop mechanisms. With these, you know, you can easily be deceived. People can lie to you; you never know. And to meet someone like Gurudeva... It is so different from any other experience you can have in this world that, in my case at least, it took some time. In the first years, I remember I looked at him from the other side of a divide and did not know: Is this some kind of wizard? Will he, I don't know, transform me into a frog? Who is this person? But then gradually you gain experience, personal experience with Gurudeva. You see that for your questions, you receive answers. You feel his presence in your life. I will tell a little story, if Gurujī permits. This is my personal story. One day we were returning from Střílek back home. There were three of us in a car. I know that before we left, all three of us went to Viśvagurujī, made praṇām, and said we were leaving now by car. Swāmījī gave us a look and said, "You are leaving right now?" We said, "Yes, Swāmījī." Then we went back, and as I was walking away from him, I stepped on a thorn with my heel. I glanced back at Viśvagurujī and thought, "What was that? Never mind," and I went on. Then, as we were driving on the motorway near Vienna, we were involved in a car crash. A car came from the right side and crashed into us. We spun a little, and near Vienna there are five lanes. We were in the fifth lane, and we went across all five lanes to the sideline where we stopped. Somehow, there was no car on any of those five lanes at that moment. I knew the moment that car crashed into ours. If you have ever been in a car crash, you know that time seems to stop a little; it goes very slowly. At that moment, my leg should have been gone, because I was sitting in the front on the right side. There are many, many such experiences; each one of us has them. And this is how you gain trust, or learn what Gurudeva is. Oṁ Śrī Dīpnāremba Gvan, Kī Jai. Oṁ Śrī Satā Gurudeva, Kī Jai.