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It was beautiful to be with you all for a week, ten days—divine guru brothers and sisters. We had nice satsaṅgs, nice walks, nice eating; such a life of harmony and unity. One should not have an individualistic nature. Those who are individualistic will have a problem achieving union with the Cosmic, because sometimes one cannot approach alone. Many have to come together, like one drop of fog. When we see fog or a cloud, it also consists of drops. Millions of these drops come together, become big drops, and begin to fall as rain. Then again, these drops must unite to become a little stream, where it begins to flow; otherwise, it can't flow, it can't walk. And then they also have to find and join another stream. In this way, it becomes one brook. Then each brook must find one river, and that river will lead them into the ocean. This is what satsaṅg means: where many come together, they build a very strong spiritual unity and power, which makes it possible for them to proceed. So, whoever is individualistic will have a problem. That drop will take time to come. Tulsī Dāsa Jī gives a very beautiful example for us to learn in our life. We also know from our Prabhujī's bhajans, where the bhajan is "sobhau satsaṅg kī"—what a glory of the satsaṅg! Where normal wood can become nearly like sandalwood, and street water becomes holy when it is a joint satsaṅg of the Gaṅgā. Similarly, when milk and water come together... the water becomes one with the milk... or milk becomes one with water. Can you tell me, please? Who becomes one with whom? We will have these discussions afterwards. It is a very interesting thing, but still it is said that water, when it becomes one with milk, the price of the water rises up. When some people sell milk and add a little water inside—twenty liters of milk and two liters of water—you will hardly notice. Now the price of the two-liter water is the same as the milk price. Like this, whoever goes to satsaṅg, who is in harmony with unity, their spiritual price rises up. Satsaṅg means good companionship. Satsaṅg means not only a very large gathering; it can be only one or two persons, or with your own thinking you can make a satsaṅg. In satsaṅg, you will learn always only good thoughts and good qualities, which will help you. At the same time, Tulsīdāsa Jī said, instead of adding water to the milk, or when you add milk and water and they both become one—what harmony between them, what oneness! But if someone puts a sour taste inside, what happens? That sour thing divides them again and spoils the milk. The milk becomes spoiled on one side, like quark cheese and water; on the other side, the milk loses its quality. Even so, the kuśaṅga (bad company) damages both sides, separates them, and spoils the quality. It can be only one person. There are people who like to talk. Do you know this? Have you had these experiences? Did you hear about that? Someone told me something like that. You know how that person is? He is so terrible. This kind of thinking, or listening to sentences and words from others, has destroyed your milk, spoiled your milk. Therefore, it is said: O Mahāprabhujī, listen to my prayer. Please grant me the satsaṅg and keep away from me the kuṣaṅgas. Then this person is like the one who said he was so pure and nice and fresh, like mother's milk—very original, spiritual. Milk is divine. Where there is milk, there is a question of life. Where the milk is the mother, only the mother can give milk. If there is a mother's love, then milk comes. And when you put kuśāṅgas, the sourness of the kuśāṅga, then it divides. Otherwise, even the water can become one with the milk. This was conditioned thinking. Hṛdaya-soch-samajata-nija-karani cintā-amit-jaya-nahi-varani kṛpā-sindhu-śiva-param-aghāḍha pragatake umoryā-pradhā. Satī remembered in her heart her deeds and her doubts, and she became so sad. Well, it is our own mistake. We are sad because we had doubts, because we did, perhaps we were jealous, perhaps we were angry, we were not satisfied. There is no one to be blamed; don't blame anyone. And if you blame others, then bad qualities increase in you. Accept and pray for forgiveness; surrender. Satī remembered that she did not trust the words of Śiva. She had a doubt, and she wanted to find out for herself that she was right. Then go and find out who is right. You will see God is always right. Now she was very sad about what she had done. Tulsīdāsa said, "It is an indescribable sorrow she had, and she understood that merciful Lord, the endless ocean of mercy, He was merciful enough that He didn't tell all my mistakes, because if He will tell me all my mistakes, that will be more painful." Better, He just smiled and asked me, "How was it? In which way did you find out?" The mood of Śiva's facial expression, the expression of your heart, and the expression of your heart is the expression of your wisdom or your stupidity. And our stupidity is the expression of our ignorance. So, how does one after another chain pull things out step by step? Face reading. Therefore, I told you in the beginning of this program, this seminar: every day you must look several times at your face in the mirror and bless yourself and say, "Please keep on smiling." And who doesn't smile? What did I say? You remember? Pull the lips out. So, have you done this to someone? Pity. There are many. You need not go to search far away; they are just beside you. So Satyajī, she noticed immediately, "What is going on, my dear? The mood of Śiva." The Swami, my Lord, has renounced me. It is very pleasant when you are accepted, but it is a little unpleasant when you are rejected. But it is more painful if you are rejected, or after they accept you, if you are divided, separated. The rejecting is just in the beginning. If someone doesn't like you, you are rejected. But if someone likes you and you are one with them, and then you are separated—that's more painful. And now Śakti knows that Śiva consciousness has separated her. In her heart, she was very sad. She knew it was her sin, she knew it was her deeds, she knew it was her mistakes, and therefore she couldn't say anything, and she didn't dare to say something. If she will ask someone a question, maybe a few words will come from him. She couldn't express her feelings, she couldn't say anything, but within her heart there was a burning fire, like fire in the chimney or the fire where you burn clay pots. The chimney of the ceramic fire, burning inside; outside is very nice, beautiful, but within, burning. So is our heart burning from jealousy. Is it true or not? From anger? From complexes? Oh, from many, many things. Please, Swamijī, don't count all of these. Don't touch that very sensitive point, the heart. Please put some balsam on it. I will bring some balsam. I am only, I am just telling what is here written. I try to explain, that's all. Otherwise, you can buy the book in the market and read, but you will not understand. And to tell the truth, this is our situation. Many of us are playing with this; many of us have these qualities in us; we went through these experiences, or we are just experiencing this—that we are divided, separated, selected or rejected, accepted. So many of us have these experiences. God Śiva, Bhagavān Śiva, when He saw Satyajī very sad, the merciful Lord spoke very sweet words to her. You see, I told you, balsam is coming, coming. But it is only balsam. Will this balsam cure those infections, disease or not? The emotional infections, the mental infections. Emotion means anger, hate, greediness—all is emotion. The Lord spoke nicely to her and told her a very nice story. Like this, God has been creating many beautiful stories, full of wisdom, full of love, while proceeding or walking towards Kailāśa. The Lord of the whole universe, the Lord, reached Kailāś. God Śiva, when He reached the Himalaya, Kailāśa, He remembered His vow, His words which He spoke, made some vow, saṅkalpa. He sat under the banyan tree, a beautiful tree, in padmāsana, the lotus seat, and He went into deep meditation. From this external consciousness, He withdrew Himself into His eternal consciousness. And He became one with Him. He remembered Himself. He again came to His divinity. What is the divine of Him? And akhaṇḍa samādhi, unbreakable, unseekable samādhi. He went deep into the samādhi. It means He withdrew His māyā again. He withdrew all these external feelings, and He went to His Divine Consciousness. That's what we all do. When we have enough of something, then we close our eyes and deeply meditate. If you remain on your feelings of your heart, those worldly feelings, then you are torturing yourself with closed eyes that no one can see, even you don't want to see. But you are torturing yourself. Or you forget all this with forgiveness, with understanding, with śraddhā (confidence), with love, with oneness. Then you can enter into inner peace. That is meditation. Well, what to do? He has withdrawn Himself now. It doesn't matter what He will say. He is lazy, or He is tired, or He doesn't want anything, or He has withdrawn. He is gone. In the sky, beautiful heavy clouds, thunder, lightning, and suddenly after one hour, all the clouds disappeared. It has rained, all pollution is cleaned, and the sky is clear, with peaceful nature. That is Śiva asavarūpa. It is that Śiva who orders Indra, and in this rain clouds, Śiva Śakti, the power of Him, is. He blesses all vegetation, everyone, and again becomes calm. Now, Satyajī, what should she do? Now you can move round and round everywhere, come and go. He doesn't notice; He's universal. And now again, "Satī basā hī kelas tab adhik sochu man mahī. Marmun kaun jāna, kasu jugasam divasa sī rahī sī, avara Rāma Candra kī?" At that time Satyajī, she also decided to live in Kailāśa. She also made her residence somewhere there. In her mind, she was very sad. She had many troubles in her mind. She was sad about the things which she had done. No one could see what she was thinking or if she was unhappy or not. But each day was like one yuga. Every time goes so quickly, and unpleasant time is very long. When a doctor gives you an injection, it is only for half a minute, but this half minute moves your heart completely. And in such a situation, she is in such a condition where there was a separation, and then withdrawn completely, even you can't talk anymore then. The days are like yugas, so happy are they. Women are they whose husband always makes her happy, and a happy husband is that one whose wife doesn't withdraw away. So, make your family happy; that's very important. But there, when you are many, many unhappy also, they would like, but they can't, because they are like a sour lemon. As soon as they try to come near this point again, it is said, "As long as you didn't speak, you were the wise one, and as soon as you spoke one sentence, we know how wise you are." So there are different ways, techniques, to come together again. Every day of Satyajī was like one yuga—thousands and thousands of years, millions of years. In Satyajī's heart, day by day, through her own thinking, new problems appeared. O Lord, when will I be able to cross this ocean of troubles? You see, we are always talking about crossing the ocean. What is the ocean? This worldly situation in which you are—this is an ocean through which you are swimming now. If you will come through or not, and when you will be able to come through. Because there are in the ocean also many sharks waiting for a good breakfast. Lord, cease thinking, "When will I be able to cross this troublesome ocean?" I have done two mistakes. I made an insult to God Rāma, and I had doubts in the words of my husband. I thought His words were a lie. And these two kinds of mistakes which I have done are too heavy for me. Lord, when will I be free from this? My destiny has given to me back what should have happened. According to that, the destiny gave me the fruit. But, oh my destiny, I don't accept that. Please don't do this to me, that though Śiva has withdrawn from me, you still give me the life that I am living without Him. Life on this earth is not anymore life; it's only torturing. She had such a kind of feeling in her heart, an unpleasant feeling—indescribable. Satyajī had a very good mind, very good intellect. She got some inspiration. She thought she should now remember God Rāma, the Viṣṇu, to help her. She remembered Him, she prayed to Him. O Lord, if You are known as a merciful one, and in the Vedas Your glory is described—that You are the remover of all sorrows, all sufferings, all troubles—Lord, if God is a merciful one, known as a merciful one, the remover of all troubles and sorrows, then, Lord, with folded hands I pray to Thee that as soon as possible I should leave this body. Please separate me from this body. If it is my love, if I have a love to Śiva's Holy Lotus Feet, through my mind, through my words, through my speech, and through all my deeds, if it is true that I love Śiva without any conditions, then, Lord, mercifully please see that I am faithful, the true one, and help me. Hoi Marāṇu jehi bhi nahi śrama doṣa abhipāti bihāi syāvara Rāmacandrakī pavana-suta Hanumānakī. Then, knower of everything, O Lord, listen to me, please, and do something immediately... that I leave this world... without any sufferings, without trying so many things... that I can become free from this suffering. But she doesn't know this. Death means not that you will be free from these troubles. That's just running away, trying to run away. And to run away is a coward. And problems will run behind you, like your own shadow. It doesn't matter how quickly you will run. Run very quickly, as fast as you can, even with an aeroplane, and then stop. The shadow is there. What to do? We are caught in such a way that in the entire universe, there is not even a small corner left where we can become free from all our sufferings. Only we have to create such a light, like these lights, from every direction there is no shadow. That's called enlightenment. Therefore, O Lords, please listen, that as soon as possible, I become free from this. The daughter of Dakṣa, Satyajī, she was like this, very sad. She had so many troubles. She was suffering so much and was unhappy. One cannot describe this. Thirty-six thousand years passed. This is Satya Yuga time, Tretā Yuga, Satya Yuga. Thousands of years, not days, went on. After 36,000 years, the immortal Śiva opened His eyes from samādhi. He should take His time, but He is merciful. After 36,000 years, He opened His eyes a little bit. How kind it is, no? He woke up from His samādhi. God Śiva opened His eyes. He again entered this world and began to repeat the mantra, "Rām, Rām...," coming out of samādhi. Satyajī said, "Thank you, thank you, Lord." She realized now He had woken from His samādhi. Now the Lord of the world had come out of His samādhi, and she went back quickly to Śiva and said, "Praṇām." Then His lotus, holy lotus, immediately went and made praṇām, and the merciful Lord took a beautiful āsana, some beautiful blanket or something, and gave place to Satyājī, and said, "Please, take it, at least something." At least He has offered you the place to sit. It is something. It's like from a dark night... in the winter, a long dark night... when suddenly dawn breaks out. It is something. Das prajesh bhaye tehi kāla, dekha vidhi vichāri, sab layak dasa hī kin. Prajāpati nāyak Bhagavān Śiva, He begins to tell beautiful, glorious stories of God. When you come from deep meditation, when you come from your samādhi, you all know how beautiful thoughts you have, what you have experienced, in which lokas you were, you were walking behind the Mars planet or maybe through the whole galaxy and different experiences that you can do only with samādhi. But we need a conditioned training for that, discipline. So, Lord, He begins to give satsaṅg. He begins to tell very nice things. Satyajī was very happy. And she hoped. She is expecting. She is waiting. Her expectation is this, that now Śiva is happy. At that time, Dakṣa became Prajāpati, and Brahmājī gave him the higher position of the head of all Prajāpatis. When Dakṣa got the higher position, in his heart, he got ego. Satī is the daughter of Dakṣa, and you know, when you get some position, then you try to play your power. Doesn't matter, even the kitchen. If they tell now, "You are the man, cook in the kitchen," immediately, man, cook has a longer spoon in the hand so that the hand doesn't burn, you know, and other one has a small spoon with a hand, so power play begins everywhere. So as soon as Dakṣa got a high position, his ego came out. Tulsīdāsa said, "In the world, there are rare ones to find who got the high position but no ego." Prabhūtā, Pai, Jayā, Madanāya, there are rare in this world who have no egos after getting a high position. Dakṣa called all the munis and began to make a big yajña. And Dakṣa has invited all the goddesses, all gods and goddesses with great respect. Something he forgot, purposely or not purposely, because of the ego, which we will see here this afternoon.