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Search for the Self

A morning satsang on meditation, self-realization, and the nature of fear and devotion.

"Meditation is a quest for the Self. Meditation is a longing to become one with the highest Self or our origin."

"Fear is one of our best friends, always warning us: don’t do this, don’t do that, be careful."

Swami Avatarpuri addresses practitioners from Linz, exploring the ultimate goal of meditation as liberation from the cycle of rebirth and suffering. He discusses the soul's journey, the protective role of fear in nature, and the necessity of unwavering devotion and purification to achieve union with the divine. The talk includes critiques of quick-fix enlightenment schemes and analogies emphasizing steady practice.

Filming locations: Linz, Austria.

DVD 443

Good morning to all, and many, many blessings to all international Bhaktas, aspirants, and practitioners. Beautiful morning greetings come to you from Linz, Austria. Meditation is a quest for the Self. Meditation is a longing to become one with the highest Self or our origin. This Jīva, which lives within us, has journeyed from that time through this infinity and has been born many times and countless times, having had experiences, good or bad, having gone through beautiful or unpleasant, uncomfortable, painful situations in different ways of life. Now, by the grace of God or the grace of the Highest Self, or through our destiny, we are born into this body. This body belongs to nature, and this body functions according to nature. In all of nature, there are three principles: being born, growing, and dying. Even a seed from a tree, which also grows, sprouts a shoot, grows into its tree, and one day that tree will also die. In nature, there are also miracles, and nature continues to struggle to live, but in humans, there are greater abilities—namely, to understand what life truly means. A person has this intellect to understand and decide: what should I do now? Because a person thinks nothing of the higher Self, because a person is unaware of the higher Self, a person wastes their time only with eating, sleeping, and producing children. It is simple, sad, eternally sad that a person has missed a golden opportunity. We know that we walk with nature, and one day there is also an end. But what is then? What will be afterwards? And a person understands and tries to move forward, and nothing in this cycle of rebirth and death matters. Suffering, pain, sadness, misery. Life is beautiful, but on the other hand, cruel. Something is constantly happening that is very painful. And so they sought a way out: how we can liberate ourselves. We need support. We need help. We need the help that in human language is called grace, the grace of God. We have only heard that there is one God, all of us. And we believe, yes, there is a God. We pray for His grace, even though we have never seen Him. Although we know that we cannot understand Him. If they are beautiful things, we say thank God, thank God. And when bad things happen, people say, well, God helped me after all. And doubt arises as to whether there truly is a God. That means we are in between. But still, from these experiences, we know there are books, there are people, accounts of numerous others who in earlier times attained realization, realized God, and according to them, experiences have... spoken about God or said what God is. There are, of course, many ways to understand God. And whoever understands God, also understands themselves. And he who himself understands nothing, understands nothing of God either. Who knows nothing himself, also knows nothing of what God is. Therefore, "know thyself" is the answer to all your questions and the end of your suffering and all problems and pains. The Self is not what we call the "I" right now. We fight for our body, we fight for our rights, and we fight for our identity. It is not that I am an Austrian or a German or an Indian or this or that, and my culture and your culture. But your culture and my culture, one day, there will be no more culture at all. In the end, we are back there again. Our only culture is spirituality, God’s grace, God’s love—that is purity, God. And that God-consciousness, the highest consciousness, we can only realize when we transcend all duality. Dualism with different cultures, religions, individuals, living beings, and so on. Unity, and this is greatly lacking in humans because a person has had an upbringing that was one-sided. A person is convinced by their upbringing and experience and wishes that everyone in Hagenau would live that way. Others have different upbringings and different experiences and cannot accept what I want to say or what I want. And at the same time, I am also not willing to accept from others and change myself as others wish. And there lies the problem. And this problem will always exist. This is an eternal struggle between Āsurī Śaktis and Devī Śaktis. Asura means negative forces. Forces, called demons or satans and so on, Asuras. A way of life, how the Asuras live, is completely different from the Devas, the life of the gods. Positive energy, spiritual life is completely different from the negative. And so there is a struggle there again. The Asuras do not want to give up anything; the Āsurī Śaktis want to be exactly the same. And they want all those who have Devī Śakti to give up everything else and come to us, to unite with us. And Devī Śakti, the positive power, also wishes that the Asuras, the Āsurī Śaktis, cleanse these karmas, sins, free themselves from them, and come to us. But nothing works. The day would like to always remain day, but night comes. And night would also like to remain only night forever, so that there would be no more day, but surprisingly after a few hours, day returns, is there again. And perhaps there is a reason why day and night have been created or established by God for our planet for such a long time. When people travel to the other planet, and once he said that in one day, meaning in 24 hours, they saw the sun rise 15 times. That’s how short the night was. And how short the day was. Thank God we can sleep longer. We have a long night. And thank God that we have a beautiful, long day. But these are the two sides, two forces in the entire universe. But it is about the living beings. It is about the individual soul. It does not matter whether a soul is in a human body or in another living being. The soul is the soul. Life is life. One should never think that only the highest and the best people matter, and others are unnecessary. No, that is a great misconception. This is the greatest misconception where people make mistakes. So to realize unity does not mean that you now sit together with the monkeys. You can try to walk, but the monkeys will surprise you and they will move away from you. Or not that you live among crocodiles, 50 crocodiles in a small pond. And you say, okay, I am in unity with you, I come and sit there. Then it is an eternal unity. Thus, nothing exists either. Live and let live. And God has given humans a faculty, and that is self-protection. Protect yourself. And there the Creator has given a fear. And fear is our greatest protection. Those who have no fear cannot continue living. And no matter which living beings, human or others, all have fear. A little moth in your kitchen, she is dense, she flies away. Who told this moth that you should fly away so quickly? There is a moth joke. A mother said that the children should always stay at home; you should not fly outside when I go shopping. Stay quietly inside. Then she asked, why, Mama? Because there are so many evil people out there. So, the mother predicted a fear. But one of these three or four children was a little curious. Much too curious. And he said to his siblings, now, today I will try, Mom is not here and I am going outside. And so, what do the bad people look like? And he flew through the dining table, where everyone was sitting, to the left and right and behind, and then came back again. Completely joyful, completely happy. And by now, Mama had arrived, and he shouted, saying, "Mama, you lied." Why, my child? Because you say there are so many bad people. Outside there are only bad people. But that is not true. He said, why? How do you know? You know, Mama, I took a test and I failed because you were away. But I tell you, everyone did the same except for joy. Everyone applauded. And so, fear is a life aid for all living beings. And fear goes hand in hand with pain. If one does not cause pain, then there will be no more fear. And pain, regardless of the type of pain, is unpleasant. And there is pain there, as long as we are conscious. And so the parts of our body, when we are conscious, then all kinds of calming, whether it is injured by a needle, a syringe, a knife, or fire, it is all pain. Such a feeling that our body dislikes. And so, thick clouds of fear cover the entire planet. And fear is one of our best friends, always warning us: don’t do this, don’t do that, be careful, and so on. When a car is driving and the passenger, the passenger means riding along, and once I was riding with someone and it said, I know you can drive better. So I asked him, why did you write something like this here? He said, when I drive, at every corner and every border and every traffic light, my wife says, be careful, now it’s a red light, be careful, someone is overtaking. So, where I can react, how do you say, attentively, or react, reaction braking distance, how do you say, when getting a driver's license, we have forgotten all that, the reaction, how many seconds, or how much time do you need to become aware of what is happening. And then, until your foot reaches the brake pedals and you brake. And that is everything, that is where our inner Self perceives. And if you had no fear, then you would say, oh yes, something is happening. Okay, should I brake? Now it no longer has the strength to brake. The other person has put the brakes on you. And that is how it is. And when you see someone driving poorly and suddenly too close, your heart condition becomes very intense. Fear also resides in the heart. This pump, the pump, has so many powers there. Perhaps one might say, the soul is there as well. Fear is there as well. Love is also there. It is a wonderful organ in our body, where so many things happen and are beautiful. So, all living beings and even plants experience fear. Once, it was in 1980, someone created or invented a device that a potato screams when you cut it. A potato is alive. And so into the kitchen, there lies a potato and he had a device there. And now he takes a knife in his hand and the device begins to vibrate and makes a sound, a shrieking sound. You have not yet cut your potatoes. You only have knives in your hand and have only sucked on potatoes. And when you took the potatoes in your hand, you cut even more. And then when cutting the potatoes, he was crying so much, he was sobbing. Well, the result was that the next day, no one bought potatoes at the wet market. Because so many people have watched the television program. And all who have seen it have said, I cannot do that. So, the Potato Company then banned this device and scolded the ORF, asking why they had broadcast such nonsense, even though it was not nonsense. So, even when you water your plants, they rejoice. And when you come with the knife or the scissors, cutting a little, then you are not so happy. Some parts come from trees, plants, and are like our hair and nails. You can cut, but the nail continues to live. And until you arrive there, then, oh, who does that? How quickly it happens. Fear is throughout the entire body, everywhere. That means, it lives, consciousness is there, and where there is pain, it lives there. Our meditation was that you overcome your fear, not for this fear, but this difficult process in radiant planes after death, because after death it does not mean that you have no more fear. And that is, once again, damn hard. We believed that fear is only bound to our body. But after death, it is the same fear. And that was the reason why the saints or sages discovered the meditation technique. One person also conducted scientific research, interviewing people who had died in the clinic, who spoke and then came back afterwards. And they wrote about how it was. Some have said fear, some have said it was beautiful, and so on. This is a book, Life After Death, by a psychologist, Moody from New York, Washington. And so, the soul goes through a process, and that is not easy either. And then another life comes again. As long as you are in the womb or inside the eggs, you have no idea where you are. But as soon as you are born, you lose your memory of the earlier. And now you behave according to nature and this form of life. Whether a reptile or a bird, a fish or a human, the soul is within, but many, many abilities are blocked. And when the other fear returns, self-protection. So every living being, when it sees other living beings, quickly moves away. Life consumes life. And that was also the reason why fear was given, because nature must continue to live and exist nonetheless. So in meditation, one overcomes the fear of rebirth and death. To break free from this boring, eternal, or painful cycle. And getting by is your path, where you can get by. And that is called union, self-realization. Then you are nothing more in this circle. It means you are free from all your karmas. And this individual mind then lives eternally with a beautiful cosmic consciousness, divine consciousness, where there is no more separation, no more rebirth, and no more attachment to anyone or anything. You always play along, but nothing beyond the individual. And that is the goal of meditation and devotion. Without devotion, we cannot become one with the Cosmic Self or whatever one wishes to call it—God or Truth or the devotion of love, and so on and so forth. Devotion. As long as a man has no devotion to women, a woman cannot accept anything from him. And as long as a woman does not have devotion to her husband, the husband cannot accept her. It is such a surrender; that is what unites them. And this is love. What is love? Love is a different word than devotion. If you have this devotion, then you are constantly one with it. And if you no longer have any devotion, then you have a goal to part as quickly as possible. Or do you say separate. Alright, you let yourself be divorced or separated or set apart, and you find another beautiful devotion and you go there. It is a wonderful unity, harmony, bliss, understanding, and so on. And after six months, your devotion is gone again. Now where to? And so it is also the spiritual path. How often do you change the altar in your heart? One time this God, another time perhaps that one, one time reading this book, another time perhaps something else, and so on. We have so many temptations. Then we lose everything. Oleg Gurdjieff often said, in a beautiful poem, if you follow a path and practice, then you will be able to realize everything. But if you try to realize everything, you will lose everything. I have forgotten the second part of this poem, but it goes something like this. So, if you have a trunk in your hand, or roots, then you have the whole tree in your hand. Pour water into the roots. Then all the leaves and branches and fruits and flowers and everything will receive water. One adorns, all adorn. Or you take a bucket of water, pure water, and go with a cotton ball to each leaf and say, I am thirsty, right. Try to give water to each individual leaf. That will not succeed. Look, there stands a great tree. How many days do you need to wet these individual leaves? Then the whole tree and leaves and everything will go to the root. But you take a bucket and pour it at the roots, and the whole tree receives this water. And so it is, when you practice one thing, remain on one path, your own mantra, you will be able to realize everything. But you had despair, no devotion, no love; then the whole, both sides, everything suffers. That is so. The tree stands there for you, but it was you who did not pass on the water. No one is there here when we are to complain, those are false, no. That comes from the Self. It is about the Self, and suddenly sometimes there are such beautiful clouds, very dense, beautiful clouds, and suddenly the wind came and drove all the clouds away. These thirsty plants and earth are always thirsty, waiting and waiting, the rain will come. There was hope, oh, such beautiful clouds, and thundered, lightning, and simply passed over. It is like this: when your devotion was suddenly as dense and good as the thick clouds, and suddenly your doubts or the wind of illusion blew everything away, and again there was nothing. You neither suffer, for you have both—hope and disappointment. Both are within you, not outside. So, devotion, meditation is a path of devotion. Of course, there are many kinds: meditation for our relaxation, meditation for our happiness, meditation as anti-stress, meditation to recognize inner joy, meditation to rest, meditation to gain much strength, meditation for world peace, because when you understand yourself, then you will also understand the world. There are many types and names for what meditation can be used for or what it should be practiced for. But the main goal, the origin of meditation, was to become one with God. And that is through love, through devotion. Love unites and doubt divides. So there was a bit of despair, jealousy, greed, and so many of these negative crocodiles, then it separates. Day by day, day by day,... day by day. So practice daily, reflect daily, be in this consciousness daily, then no question of your separation or your letting go and so forth will arise. So, you should not make a decision to be. You must decide to remain as one. And for that, we must practice devotion. Parents also have this love for their children; it is a devotion, nothing else. And because children have respect and love for their parents, it is also a form of devotion. And I believe that is such a beautiful word in the German language. Surrender. Give yourself, your wholeness into it—that is the act of uniting. And so, in meditation, so much becomes clear, and one understands the meaning of life and also sees the past, and then it becomes clear why I began to meditate, and constantly through this channel or the current or this channel of light. Your individual consciousness makes its way or direction toward the divine Self. Then all those others who have made mistakes have no significance for you. You understand, from higher planes, we understand very much. When we are beyond our physical body, in radiant planes, and someone now owns your house, takes it away, it does not hurt you. Or your precious jewels falling into the Danube—this means nothing to you. Or your bank account, someone has taken everything now, the hard-earned money, you saved your whole life and were so individually great, you were relaxed. And now there are no Great Ones, it is gone. But it doesn't hurt you at all. That means, this is what is separated from the material world. Then death and pain, everything, you no longer feel that. But you feel what your karma is going through there and by which process. And so meditation was conceived for inner purification, karmic purification, a good relationship with this world and union with the divine Self. Recognition for oneself and the path is only love. Love means positive, positive energy. Devī Śakti is love. And Āsurī Śakti is anger, hatred, greed, envy, jealousy, and so on. These are Āsurī Śaktis. And the Āsurī Śakti resides deep within the body. A master gives the students meditations for self-realization. Self-Realization within six months. My God, six months of self-realization. I will be the very first to register there. And in the advertisement, it says, limited place. In America, when you go there and see everywhere such programs, they write Self-Realization, a weekend workshop for Self-Realization. Within one weekend, you can attain Self-Realization. Free of charge. Free. Register yourselves. Limited space. Now or never. Truly, it is all there. I do not lack what I say. Next time I must bring a passage that I believe in. Minimum donation, 2,500 dollars. That is stated. Minimum donation, 2,500 or 200 or 80 or 50. Why? Because, because of the tax. If you make a donation in the name of the donation, then you do not pay any taxes. And there you say, limited place, and when you go, the place is for 200 people and there are only four people sitting. Because not everyone is so foolish as to be in a... And then these four people, those who say the teaching, say Mantra, OM, SOM, OM, HOM, come, you are already realized. I have already given you realization. You are free. Go, do what you like to do. You are free. You are a self-realized one. And then there are those who go around everywhere saying, I have already realized myself. And I am beyond karmas. Now I can do whatever I want. Very nice, isn’t it? That’s how it happens quickly in the world as well. Like a six-month self-realization program. And many people came. And once a week, students could come and speak with the Master about how they feel, how they are doing. And after four months, a disciple came to the master and said, sit before the master. And the master said, yes, how do you feel? She says, Master, I have otherwise realized myself. I am one with the divine Self. There is not even a God anymore. Only I am. The Master said, very well, I will test. Sit down in front and go deep into your meditation. She sits there, after ten minutes she says, Master, there is absolutely nothing. No elements, no astral body, not even God, because I am that, that I am. No anger, no hatred, no envy, no individuality. And the Master said, and move forward. Yes, Master, I can do nothing, because then it becomes difficult for me. There is nothing, there is also no master. There is neither you nor me. I am one of the Infinite. I am free from anger, ego, greed, happy. Only one thing, pure consciousness. And the master took a piece of bamboo. And the Master was truly, the Master no longer has any mass. So, but it was a soft spot, yes. But painful. Right on the head. And it jumped. Are you crazy? I didn’t do anything at all. The Master said, I am surprised. About what? Where does this anger come from? You said, Master, there is no anger, no suffering, no pain. And where does that come from? Meditate for six months and then come back, okay? Sometimes it is our simple thought and notion, I know everything, I can do everything, I have already read everything, I need nothing. I know there is God and Ātman, I have already come to know that, Harjo, please. Nothing is that simple. There have been many, many saints, and ask them how many years or yugas they washed dishes in the kitchen of the master kitchen. Śiva, Śiva,... Śiva. Practice, practice, practice. And so it is. There are miraculous powers. There is everything. You receive everything once you free yourself. There is a tea bag, and the bag is completely full. And I want to add something more. What will happen? Overflow. Everything flows out. I can no longer put anything in. And so our inner bag is overloaded, completely full. But about what? I’d rather not say. And so, therefore cleanse, means everything away, away,... away. And then you will see, these miraculous powers and beauty come in. And it is nothing material. Or it is material, so you think, I will remove this. Nothing is lost. Someone stabs you with a knife and then takes the knife away again. But the knife is still there. And so it is, these impressions, impressions and feelings on the subtle planes, you cannot cleanse them in one day or two days. Many, many lives you cleanse your mind, yet there remain spots that you cannot purify. And so there are many, many karmic impressions that we must overcome. That is what meditation is for. And for that, a proper guiding mantra is very important. Do not think that my mantra is so long. I sit and repeat the mantra. It happens only once. I have to demonstrate 105 times. The mantra is too long. Please, Swāmījī, could you give me a very short mantra. A long mantra means more power. A short mantra means a short sort. So, it does not matter whether the mantra is long or short. What quality does it have inside? That is very important. And so, it is not that you necessarily have to practice five times. It is not about practicing a hundred times daily or repeating a thousand times. What is important is that your devotion is present, and the space within your devotion is meditation. And within this meditation is the light, and the light is your mantra. No more devotion, then the mantra becomes boring, sitting is uncomfortable, time is gone, interest is no longer there. So, the first lesson is very important: to love yourself. Love yourself, honor your self, be glad that you are, and then your devotion to the Master and the mantras and your meditation will be so beautiful. Once Holi Gurjī said, meditation is like a hungry baby, very hungry and crying, and the mother comes and gives it milk, nursing it. And for the baby, the most beautiful thing is drinking milk from the mother. Or a hungry calf comes and drinks milk from its mother. And so, Guruji said, for a Bhakta or an Ibenda, this is divine nectar for the hungry soul that has starved for many lifetimes and now has finally received it. This is it. And so, our meditation is very important. Certainly, our physical exercises, breathing exercises, concentration—all are very important for our well-being. We are also here so that we do not experience pain and do not have to go through anything. It is not easy to consciously face death... You know, you are, you are fully conscious, you have all the memories, beautiful memories. When we were healthy, driving cars, hiking in the mountains, climbing and swimming and running and making jokes and everything. And now your body slowly, slowly yields. A doctor can only do one thing, and that is to relieve the pain when they give something. And you know that now your end has come and passes away, and this period of life is one of the most difficult times of our lives. You know that it is now, and no one will be able to walk with you, no one. We are all sitting beside you, we are here for you, and we have compassion, but we cannot go along with it; we pray for you. We say, yes, it will be good. Some people tell me that I help people, to those who are dying. Yes, imagine the light and you enter into the light and you come to God and so on. But the dying person knows what the madman tells me. It's not that simple either. And so, this final time of our life is crucial. For you, it does not matter who wants to have your possessions, who inherits and who does not inherit; it is all the same to you. And in such times, when someone says, please write your will, sign it, that for this person is as if you had, now, the skin of the body. So, we pray to God that when this time comes for us, quickly please for the stadium. Not consciously, piece by piece, cutting into pieces. God, this is not good, please. Every second is a year, more than a year for the suffering. He who is affected knows what pain is. One feels the arrow, others do not. You see, when someone shoots a bullet at a deer or a hare or something like that, or with an arrow, the one affected knows what pain is. Our meditation is a path that prepares our mind, our intellect. It will become easier for us to give up everything and suffer nothing. And for that, there are the mantra and meditation.

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