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In life, we have many experiences. We try to be happy, we try to achieve things, we try to act, and we wish to be comfortable and content. Yet, our true purpose in this life is different from what we are doing. After doing this and that, we still do not know if this is what we truly wish to do. We change our attitude, our mind, our feelings, our aim. But suddenly, one day, we realize: that was not the aim of my life; that was not the purpose of my life. That is not what I am searching for. Lucky are those who have these tendencies, this intuition, this feeling from birth. And blessed are those who can have the shelter of the Satguru Dev. To meet a Satguru Dev is one of the greatest pieces of luck or happiness, but to meet the master is not everything. To receive something from him is what is important. Kṛpā draṣṭi, a kind look. Dayā draṣṭī, a gaze full of mercy. And this must be constant. Consider that if it rains once and then does not rain for three years, all the seeds that sprouted and the grass that began to grow will be gone. We need that rain to come constantly, at the right time, so the plants remain alive. Similarly, we need the memory of the Gurudev, the presence of the Gurudev, the satsaṅg of the Gurudev, a kind attention, the blessing of the Gurudev, and the guidance of the Gurudev. This cannot come to you unless you realize your need for it. A thirsty person can acquire many things, but not that which quenches thirst. When water comes, he knows what it is and will drink. We do get many things, good and bad, in this world. But that divine mercy, love, karuṇā, prema, karuṇā nidhān—the bestowal of mercy—is different. For many, many years, our dear Gurujī, Holy Gurujī, served our dear Mahāprabhujī. As Gurujī also came to Mahāprabhujī at a very young age, I have met many people. I have met many swāmīs and sādhus. They are great, very good. But such a disciplined, practicing, and praying person, I have met very rarely. I would say, one who realized his master—I didn't meet anyone. Yes, they said, "We have a master." The master's picture is hanging on one side, and some other stone statue is there somewhere. They pray to this stone, to that. Gurujī said, "Ek sāje sab sāje, sab... jai." If you do one thing properly, you will achieve everything. And when you try to achieve everything, you will lose everything. So to understand, to feel, to realize this is not an easy job. Often we have doubts in the Master. Often Gurujī was angry, and I said, "Yes." You read about Gurujī many things in his book. The day he met Mahāprabhujī, he knew: this is the one for whom I was searching, with whom I was together for many, many lives. I found what was lost and was happy; there was no more search. Even if someone were to research your consciousness and thought—in your longing, in your consciousness, in your visions, in your each breath, and in your each blood cell—there is a purity, pure only one Guru. That's it. It is so much that Gurujī was constantly one with Mahāprabhujī, practicing lifelong, practicing mantras. Holy Gurujī had a Rudrākṣa Mālā, so big. Until the end of his life, practicing, practicing, it all was—how to say—polished. It remained small like this, like wood. Can you imagine? How many billions of times did his fingers pass over it, repeating the mantra of Mahāprabhujī's name and this bhajan? When Gurujī wrote this bhajan, it was about, you know, in 1975, something '95, something, or until the last century... At that time, Gurujī, who was completely one with Mahāprabhujī's divine light body—his body, of course, had hunger, thirst, eating, sleeping, death, illness, everything—but within him was only that light, that flame. Though he was so far one with Mahāprabhujī, anytime Gurujī, when he slept or closed his eyes, he said, "I dream of Mahāprabhujī." Mahāprabhujī was coming, Mahāprabhujī was going, he told this, he said that. He told, "How am I this?" You see, Mahāprabhujī didn't tell me, but he told Gurujī how I am doing, what I am doing. So when Gurujī said that Mahāprabhujī told him how you are doing, I was sweating. And looking to Mahāprabhujī, I hoped you didn't say something that would make Gurujī angry. For me also, I can tell you a very little glimpse of my experiences. Otherwise, you will read; I will dictate one day or write a biography. At present, everything is a graph, you know. So we are searching for the view. From very childhood, my interest was only toward spirituality. When my father passed away, after some months, Gurujī came to visit my mother to pay his condolences. I saw him for the first time in my life. We had a picture at home, black and white, with a beard. When I was small, I thought I would clean it with water. I took water and cleaned it, and the beard and face all became white. But when I saw Gurujī coming, such a divine flame entered my soul, and I said, "Yes, that's what I want." That's all I will tell. Further, I will not tell. And that is forever and ever, penetrated through and through. That's it. There was no more place for anyone inside. Like Holy Gurujī had Mahāprabhujī. So, though Holy Gurujī had so many experiences, divine light, realizations, everything, he still is praying to Mahāprabhujī. That's it. And disciples like us, when we have a little realization, we think we don't need a master anymore. "I am the master." Then how long will you be a master? Such a master is called a self-made master. We call it a crow sitting on the peak of the temple and smiling. Why? Because people are praying in the temple, the crow thinks they are all praying to me. But they are not praying to you, my dear. They pray to the god of the temple. The last second of your life, you can fall through. I tell you one story, a practical story. You don't know this, what I will tell you, because you didn't experience it. I experienced this because I come from that part of India which is desert, with lakes of water. Now, there are many technologies; we have drilled holes in the earth, what we call tube wells, so we have the tube, the wells, and water sucking. But before 45 years, 40 years, 50 years, we had to dig a water well. It was very expensive, very hard, and the water was very deep. But people managed; in every village at least they had one well. The whole village could manage, and if they were lucky, there was water. We had water 30 meters deep, 20 meters deep, 10 meters deep, or 40 meters deep, depending on the area. Some places, 100 meters deep. From this water well, you had to get water out. There were no engines, no motors. So we had to go with the water pot on the head. The women were carrying it on the head, and men were carrying it mostly on the shoulders. So my disciples, sometimes they massage me and say, "Your muscles, shoulder muscles are so strong, Swāmījī, like a body builder." Now you know the secret of my muscles. Yes, how many kilos? Though I was small, children had to survive. So, ten meters of deep water means we must have about twelve meters of long rope. This rope was tied to one bucket, an iron bucket. Plastic came now, unfortunately, in these last three or four decades. You tie the bucket with the rope, and you let the bucket go deep, ten meters, and when it makes a noise, then we know there is water. You move it until the bucket fills, and then bring the bucket up. If you are too near, then the bucket hits the walls of the well. By the time it comes up, water up, bucket up, there is no more water. So you have to be concentrated and carry it like this. That was our Sarvithāsana, no? Now you know from where Swāmījī got the Sarvithāsana. Sometimes it happened, not only with me, but with many. The bucket came out nine meters, and in the last meter, the rope broke. What happened? The bucket fell. You can't go deep in. There was no ladder, no possibility. They didn't make any steps, to avoid people going in to bathe. This was drinking water for the whole village. Now, nothing. You come home with an empty pot. Then we had to borrow in the village. Someone had a kind of hook that we call the cat, like a cat, and with another rope to search inside where it is. Sometimes we caught it again, and then it came out. The bucket came out nine, ten, half a meter, and somehow it lost, fell again in. That is an example of my satsaṅg: that whole life we are very dedicated, very devoted, and we do everything until the last minute. You make some problems, and you fall deep into that. That's it. So it doesn't matter if you or I think that Swāmījī is now everywhere above and doesn't need... no, no. I must also have still hooked my bucket. And the rope in such a hand, strong, so it doesn't go out. That's a lifelong job. Even if you are an enlightened soul—okay, enlightened, we are lighted—even if you have some kind of siddhis, you are levitating, okay? What is that? My airplane can also levitate. A balloon can also levitate. What is that? This is not something extraordinary. Or even if you can walk on the water; every bird can do it. A different boat is on, fluttering on it. Until the last breath of your life, you have to be that one who is completely surrendered, dedicated. That's all. Many, many techniques you can do, but nothing can be compared with your love, devotion, bhakti. And so, how do you lose this? Though you have so many siddhis and so many energies, and... divine kuśaṅga, bad society, bad worlds, bad blackmailing. Someone tells you one negative word, and your whole prepared, nice balloon is blasted because it's popped up by one tiny needle. Years and years and years of confidential and devotional work done, and a bacteria enters in—cholera or malaria or something, who knows. Therefore, God protects us from this. Many years ago, though Mahāprabhujī was with Holy Gurujī, after that, he was with Holy Gurujī all the time. Holy Gurujī's tongue was named Mahāprabhujī's. Even on his car door he wrote, "Dīp Nayan Bhagavān Kī Jai Bolo, Phir Darvājā Kholo." First, say, "Dīp Nayan Bhagavān Kī Jai," and then open the door. "Mā Prabhujī said, 'O merciful Mā Prabhu Dīp, please listen to my prayers. Listen to my request. Be merciful and bless me with satsaṅg.'" Still, he is searching for satsaṅg. He himself is a satsaṅg. But still, some negative insight can come. "Please protect me from kuśaṅga and keep all these bad-minded people and those who have bad intentions away from me, please." That's it. It's not that you will protect yourself. Destiny, and there are some other divine powers which are moving there, or negative powers. Only Guru Kṛpā can protect us from this dust or durjan who can pull you to kuśāṅsa. You love the rock, and you embrace the rock and fall in the water. The rock will also go under, down, and will take you also down. Hari Om Tārsat. So I hope and I pray that you will not meet in your life such a rock which will take you to the bottom and finish you. Study. Brahmābhyāsa, vairāgya, akhaṇḍa rahe. Brahmābhyāsa means always thinking of the Brahman, the Supreme, and vairāgya, detachment. Akhaṇḍa rahe, unbreakable. There should be no gap in my thoughts where there is no Brahmābhyāsa and no vairāgya. On the day when your vairāgya stops for a while, chick, comes the negative energy inside of you. Then, a little earthquake and a crack in the walls. When the crack in the wall is repaired, it is repaired. But it is a crack. So, no gap in Brahmābhyāsa, bhakti, jñāna, and vairāgya. Please make my sādhanā, this practice of vairāgya and Brahmābhyāsa, akhaṇḍa and avichala. Chal means movement, and avichal means unmovable, unshakeable. My faith should not have any doubts, unshakable. Viśvadīp jyoti ghaṭme prājñāt rahe. The light of the universe, the flame of the universe, should always be in my heart, shining in my heart. Bharam andherā merā dūr kār dī jo. And my doubts, the ignorance of my doubts should be removed forever. Saguṇa Brahma, Param Sukha Rasi. O Mahāprabhujī, you appear from nirguṇa to saguṇa. You are the saguṇa Brahma. Therefore, like Holy Gurujī is often, the God also, repeating mantra: "Oṁ Śohaṁ Saguṇa Brahma Śrī Dīp Paripūraṁ Nārāyaṇa Namaḥ." So Mahāprabhujī was the incarnation of the Brahman. Holy Gurujī didn't say only this, "Your body," but with his body, for Gurujī was that Brahman self, the Mahāprabhujī self. Saguṇa Brahma, Param Sukharāśī, and an eternal happiness. Mere naino me nāṭ vasi jo. Lord, have your seat in my eyeballs. Wherever I look, I see you. I see through you the world. That's it. I see through my Gurudev the world. Swās o swās mere āpkā hī sumiran. Gurujī said, "Swās o par swās, each breath, inhalation and exhalation, I have only the repetition of your name. Swās o swās āpkā hī sumiran, mala, vikṣepa, āvaraṇa har lejo." So please remove mala, vikṣepa, and āvaraṇa. Mala is impurity, vikṣepa is disturbances, and āvaraṇa is ignorance. Dhyāna aṭal rahe śubh carṇo me. My concentration, my imagination, my meditation, all the time should be on your holy lotus feet. Avichal, akhaṇḍ, unmovable. And every second, like what we call pal means in Hindi—you close eyes and open this—every time when my eyelids move, my love should increase to thee, O my Lord. So, can you imagine, from the first day when Gurujī met Mahāprabhujī until this time, how much love became stronger and stronger for him, but still it was not enough. From love, you cannot have enough. Love you cannot measure with kilometers or kilograms or centimeters. That is that divine wisdom. Āp ke dāsan ke dāsa ho hai. If you don't accept me, then let me be the servant of your servant. Let me be the bhakta of your bhakta. Ho yu prasanna sevā merī lījo. Please, can you accept my service? If you don't accept directly, then let me serve your bhakta. And through serving your bhakta, please accept my service. Karma yoga, no? Not only coming always and sitting in the front. Very important, VIPs always go back. Sir asks people, "Do you want some eating? Do you want some drinking? How are you? Give them place. Please go first, sit in the front." People came from America. They saw Swāmījī. I don't know when the last time did someone... Say, please, you come sit in the front today with Swāmījī, because we are very selfish. We are celebrating the feast, that's the selfish feast. So give—that means to give chance, give attention, give them health, give them water, give them eating. And if not good, then give them anger. And if that doesn't function, then give them something like this: "Come, sit down. Āpke dāsan ke dāsam hove, hoye prasanna merī sevā lījo." Merciful Lord, be happy and accept this my service through serving your bhakta or your devotees. Nit nit sapne mein āp padāro, aur sab sapna nivṛt karālo. Every day, please, whenever I sleep, come in my dream. When I am awakened, I am always thinking of you and aware. But when I am sleeping, perhaps, then I am not. A little distance. So my sleep will not be empty sleep. You come. Please, Mā Prabhujī, come in my dream every day. Or rest, other kinds of dreams. Remove it. Because many things you do in the dream also, and many frightening things come. Many horrible, horror dreams come, you know. You never know which kind of dream you have. And if there is only Mā Prabhujī, then everything is happy, and peaceful, and beautiful. Pala pala Prabhujī, āpko pukāru. Nāī. Śraddhā, viśvāś, mera kam nahīṁ hove. Śraddhā, confidence. Viśvāś, belief. My belief, my confidence should never decrease. Day by day, please listen to the request of your meek disciple, helpless and meek one, requesting you, O Mahāprabhujī, Lord. O giver, merciful Mahāprabhujī, I pray to thee. Please do not disappoint your servant. I am asking you, Mahāprabhujī, for this. Do not disappoint me. Gurujī said his name himself. I don't ask for anything: no money, no this, no... power, no siddhi, no realization, nothing. Only one. Śrī Mādhavānandajī maṅge caraṇauki bhakti, only my devotion, adoration to thy holy lotus feet, O Mahāprabhujī. Janam janam harīdāsara kī jo, that every life, if I have next life, let me be your servant. Dīp dayālā, āraj sun lījo. That's called the call of the soul, that longing for the divine. It is the longing for belonging to that divine which all creatures are longing for, Dīp Nayan Bhagavān Kī.